a bit of a rant and vent, i dont vent normally but here we go.

foster care hit 3 years in april… my birth month… 5 months my mom hasnt talked to me…

then theres just the fact im loosng motivation and drive to do anything… i think my meds might be making i worse, im doing this here because ppl on bdns will worry… and i feel like im the “happy one” in bdns alo, always “stay strong, you did so good! proud of you man :)” meamwhile i havent heard “im proud of you” irl from a friend… ever really… just online…

the 3 people im with in the poly noticed it too, it makes it worse…
they dont talk as much, and just in general i recently broke up with two and feel like sht kinda…