I try to present okay and try to keep my compose
But all of that happiness fades away when the doors closed
I try not to hurt inside and itโs hard to breathe
But it all boils up and starts to bubble out of me
I hate when I cry but I know itโs good for me
My head starts to hurt and my body gets weak
I love you I know youโre deeply worried too
But I donโt want you to worry anymore than you already do
I donโt know how to explain that I donโt want you to freak
It sucks being lost, I donโt know how to handle this week
I wonder what next month will be like hopefully its okay
These episodes last forever and ever it seems that way
I try not to hide how I feel because you tell me not to, and I would
But Iโm scared of getting help because no one helps me like they should