okay... kinda just gonna vent...? tbh idk if this is venting or not.
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i feel like i need this so you dont have to care, im not asking you to care, nor am i asking you to even post on this or read this. its just really hard seeing how people dont trust me, or how people talk shit abt me behind my back, or make fun of me for what i like and what i do. i dont care abt your options and i surely dont care abt you then. and you know whats worse? is that i feel fucking guilty. tbh i dont even care abt getting picked on bc i get picked on where ever i go, so why even care atp. its just really fucking easy for me to feel guilty abt things, but its like i cant stop being guilty over something. you dont need to know what that is but clay and i think duncan knows. and yk what else really fucking bothers me? suicide. pls dont joke around abt it. i get it, your upset, your going through rough times, your sad all the time, you dont eat, you barely smile, you barely laugh anymore, you cant trust anyone around you unless you really know they are there for you. trust me on this, ik what tf your going through. i understand. for fucks sake, i wake up in the morning and i feel like its my fault my brothers suicidal and depressed, i question myself if im ever going to be touched in places i shouldnt have been touched in again, why im still here, how im going to live the day, how im going to not upset someone today, will i be broken up with, will everyone leave me, is my mom okay or is she struggling again today, the fucking pills, do they hate me, how am i still here, go back to sleep, should i eat today? nah, and a bunch of other shit. i know the pain your going through and it fucking sucks ass. but guess what? im here… i still exist. i know, i know, trust issues suck and its worse with online people but im here.
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@RyLIE-Offline I needed this. Thank you. I read the whole thing.
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@RyLIE-Offline Im so sorry u feel this way. Just so yk i trust you and i wouldn’t ever say something abt You behind your back :) I hope you can understand that me and so many other people are here for you! Yes there r so mean ppl… but dw abt just keep being you! If you ever need to vent again then pls just say it :)
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@Floofy your welcome… :] also pog. <3
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Bri noted, thanks.
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@2-Faded4-_-yhu thank you. just know im also here for you too, your not alone.
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@2-Faded4-_-yhu tbh, true.
