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Um… just life stuff, songs of the day and how I feel I guess, idk.
Entry 1: I feel sad. I forgot to take my medicine today and now I just feel depressed. I feel like I don’t make the person I care about the most happy. I reminisce about the past and think about all the terrible things in my life. I hate it. I think that everyone I know hates me, I think that all the bad things that have happened to me is my fault, and I’m scared that I’m going to fuck up my life even worse. I’m scared that I’m going to somehow mess up everything that makes me happy. I have no hope in my future as of right now. I know that I should get help, but I’m too scared to talk to anyone, I don’t want to tell others about my problems but I do it anyway and I feel like I’m a burden when I do that. But I’m fine and I will be fine. Everything will get better. Eventually.
Emotion: Depressed
Song of the day:
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@Izzyyyyyyy yes?
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🖤Zofya🖤 Are u good?
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🖤Zofya🖤 I have faith in you 🙏 you will get through this
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@Izzyyyyyyy I’ll be fine, I just haven’t been taking my meds like I’m supposed to and menace got upset before he went to sleep which made me upset
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@Laws thank you
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🖤Zofya🖤 Absolutely. You got this. Imma include you in my prayers tonight
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@Laws
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🖤Zofya🖤 awwwwww
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@Laws NU you’re giving me kindness-
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🖤Zofya🖤 Awwww well, its what I do best. : )
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@Laws You act like a parent istg
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🖤Zofya🖤 “…and welcome back to ‘15-yr-old teen dads,’ the show about people who are male, 15 years of age, and got into a real pickle with their shawty”
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@Laws LMAO
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Entry 2: Great, rumors about my relationship are spreading. First someone said I was cheating, now this
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🖤Zofya🖤 Hey… I definitely couldn’t hate you, Zofya. If it means anything. And I know that struggles always seem like your fault, but some people just get unlucky. Don’t feel that you’re messing up your life, and don’t be scared you’ll mess up more. Life is bound to have mistakes in it, yknow? If life was perfect, how will we ever learn? You’d never know anything from experience. You don’t have to talk to anyone about your struggles, but, let me tell you. If you decide to reach out to someone, at least let me tell you that you’re not a burden. I know that doesn’t have any proof in the pudding, but. Trust me. You’re not a burden. And, I appreciate you saying those last few lines. Even just reminding yourself that life will get better does more than you might realize : ) A little positive view is the little sliver of light that will eventually grow. ♥
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Entry 3: I went to school again today and it was boring, like usual. Other than musical rehearsals later tonight, I have nothing to do, so it’s a boring day again. Also an update about my audition for the solo, I didn’t get the part I wanted but I got 2 solos! I’m still happy about it! That’s all for right now
Emotion: Happy
Song of the day:
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🖤Zofya🖤 Congratulations! 🎊🎉 That is exciting : )
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Entry 4: A normal day like usual
Emotion: Bored
Song of the day: this has been stuck in my head today
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