Y’all, can I just talk for a sec?
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I don’t like venting, especially not publicly, I hate it, but anyways ima go against what I just said, and ima vent, publicly.
Why is it that everything is always my fault? Why does everything fall apart because of me? Why is it always Ana did this, Ana did that, Ana took it too far, Ana doesn’t know anything, why? Tell me, why? I don’t know why this just now came to my mind, but I’ve realized something. I have problems, ones of my own, I just don’t talk about them to a lot of people cause I don’t like putting my problems on anyone else’s plate, but I think I kinda have to start doing that, because well. If something ever goes wrong, it’s always my fault, why? Because I have a perfect, amazing life, I get what I want, I’m rich according to my friends, I have this wonderful family, etc. but oh, so and so’s life is falling apart, so in this case ana is to blame, right? Yeahh cuz that’s how we face problems, by blaming Ana :))
Anyways, I just wanted to say this.
Just because someone doesn’t vent often, it doesn’t mean they aren’t struggling with their own problems.
And this post isn’t really singling out anyone, this is for everyone.
FYI though, no I’m not rich, I work for my money, and I don’t even spend it on myself, I spend it on gifts, or food for my family and or friends, and my family isn’t so perfect, it feels as if day by day it falls apart more, my life feels like it’s losing all the value it ever had to it, I only have my friends to keep me going, my parents don’t need me, they have 3 other kids, and they want me to go away already, my brothers hate me, they didn’t even want a sister, no one needs me, not even my friends, now that I think about it, I don’t think anyone needs me, I’m just here to hang on for a while longer. -
@7o2_An-a hey, just wanted to let you know that venting publicly and or venting privately is okay. sharing your feelings with others isnt a bad thing. i get it why you dont much bc of trust issues or just bc you dont feel like sharing much feelings towards others abt yourself. and ik how it feels to always think that people are blaming me for shit i didnt even cause and ik how it feels to be the one to blame when someone else’s life is going through shit. you shouldnt be the one to get blamed for that. getting blamed with anything really just brings less emotion towards that person and it also just makes sadness even worse tbh. thats really upsetting that just bc others think your life is so amazingly perfect its okay to assume and its okay to bring you down. do people not know the saying; “if you walked in my shoes, you would understand.”
obv. people dont and that just makes this fucking world shitty even more.
i understand the feelings your going through and im really sorry you have to feel them. feeling any type of pain is just heartbreaking and it sometimes makes it to where we get trauma, depression, suicidal, anxiety, and a lot of other struggles that honestly no kid should go through.
and ana, pls never say that your not needed. you are. it might not seem like you are bc of what thoughts your thinking or bc of what everything around you is like but pls trust me, you are needed and your mom does need you even if she might want you out. she cares abt you, theres probably just a lot of shit on her plate rn thats making it to where shes taking her struggles and putting it on you and possibly other people.
and honestly if i could i would tell your brothers that even if they didnt want a sister they still got one and thats better than nothing. they’re going to need you sooner or later they just dont understand that. siblings need each other as much as you might not agree to it. i have to deal with a twin brother and we have a lot more connection than what we think just bc we fight all the time.
and again, you can ALWAYS come to me. it doesnt matter if im struggling with my own shit, i will help you as much as i can and i promise that to you and others.
just know that i love you /p and others do too.
your fucking needed trust me. -
@That-One-Dead-Man
It doesn’t feel that way, it never has, anyone who’s ever truly needed me, I’ve failed to protect them the way I wish I could’ve, I’ve seen my friends go through shit I wish they never would’ve gone through, and I tried my best to protect my friends and family, but no matter what, I always fail in doing so, I’m not needed, I know that, I know I’m not, but thank you for the comforting, and I know I can vent to you, but I just don’t like doing it, I feel like I’m too needy. -
@7o2_An-a i get it, you think your a failure. trust me, i have the same feeling. but deep down its just a feeling thats going to go away. and ik how it feels to not be able to save someone from their problems and its really hard trying to do everything you can to be able to save them but yet you think… “did i really save them?”
trust me ana, ik what your feeling and some others do too. im going to keep trying to remind you that you are worth something and that you are needed bc in my eyes, its true. i wouldnt lie to you nor would i lie abt something like that.
and your never needy for venting abt what your feeling and what your going through. keeping those feelings locked up inside isnt going to help anything. but like i said, i completely understand why you dont, and i cant make you do anything your not okay with doing. but locking the feelings up doesnt help anything it fr just makes everything worse. -
@That-One-Dead-Man
People will call me a pick me, I get enough of it already, I hate it, and I don’t need more of it, which is why I don’t vent, I also don’t like being comforted because I feel as if all eyes are on me, and it makes me self conscious -
@7o2_An-a a pick me has nothing to do with venting.
a pick me is literally a girl or woman who claims or even acts as if she is not like most women in order to gain attention from men.
thats what a fucking pick me is. has no reasoning on venting so whoever is calling you that from venting doesnt know what a pick me really is and is probably fucking crazy in the head bro.
and that makes sense, im just trying to help and i dont want to make you feel like eyes are on you bc they arent im just trying to do what i do best. -
i feel the same way ana your not the only one :(
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@That-One-Dead-Man
Thanks for being a good friend, although I don’t really think I can change anything about my life atm, this helps. -
@7o2_An-a anytime.
like i said, im ALWAYS open even if im going through my own problems.
and its going to take a while for those struggles your going through to finally end but once they do you’ll be able to cope a lot more better with those problems your going through and you wont think so little of yourself all the time.
