I. Fucking. Hate. My. Fucking. Life. And. Kinda. wanna. die.
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I'VE BEEN STRESSED, ANXIOUS, DEPRESSED, WORKED UP, DRAINED, SAD, I AM SO FUCKING TIRED AND SICK OF THIS. I'VE BEEN HAVING URGES ALL FUCKING WEEK. I JUST WANT TO RELAPSE LIKE IT'S NO ONES BUSINESS. I HATE IT. I CAN'T FIX SHIT, I CAN'T HELP MY GF, I CAN'T STAND TO EVEN HELP MYSELF, I HATE NOT SLEEPING. I NEVER WANNA WAKE UP. I HATE SCHOOL. I HATE EVERYONE, AND EVERYTHING, AND FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST NEED HELP. I'VE NEEDED HELP SINCE FUCKING KINDERGARTEN, BUT I'M JUST A FAKER WHO'S NEVER HAD ANY BAD TRAUMA SO I CAN'T BE DEPRESSED. RIGHT? CAUSE THAT'S HOW DEPRESSION WORKS NOW MOM?! I COULD'VE BEEN SAVED BEFORE MY LIFE WENT TO SHIT BUT NOOOOOO I STILL HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN DIAGNOSED, MEDICATED, OR PROPERLY TREATED FOR ANYTHING. I CAN'T MANAGE MY STRESS, MY GRADES, MY EMOTIONS, AND MY WORLDS COLLAPSING. I CAN'T EAT, I CAN'T SLEEP, I CAN'T FUNCTION, I'M SHAKY ALL THE TIME, I'M SAD. AND I'VE HAD THE WORST FUCKING SPRING BREAK EVER. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE...
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AND I CAN'T EVEN HELP MY GIRLFRIEND. WORST OF ALL. I CAN'T HELP HER. IDK WHAT TO DO EVER. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE SHIT ANYMORE. AND I CAN'T CRY. I CAN'T CRY ANYMORE. I'M SO NUMB
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@HEXER hey..i feel ur pain...i have deppression and anxitey to..wanna talk about it?
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@Hope_London_ not rly.
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@HEXER alrighty
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cyx. look at me... your going to be okay. trust me. ik you've heard that so many times before but your going to be okay. pls talk to me. ill try to help the best i can. ill check up on you everyday if i have to. your struggling and guess what? i know what your going through. bc im going through it too. thats what i dont think people understand, ive either been in your shoes before or im going through what your dealing with. your stronger than what all these problems are throwing at you. your braver than what you think. your fucking amazing and even though you might not think your helping your girlfriend, you are. bc she can even agree with me, from you just being there for her and being with her helps her as much as she helps herself. i know thats really hard to believe but its true. your presence in her life is better than her own presence. i have to tell myself that everyday just to not overthink but i still do. its going to be hard right now and your going to have thoughts and urges more than ever bc your hurting more than you've ever hurt before. and im going to try my best to help you bc i believe that you can get better. i dont want to lose you. your an amazing friend and your an amazing person its so hard seeing you hurt like this. i dont care if im going through my own shit. talk to me pls. ill do my best to help.
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@xay-is-hot-stfu dude, you have no idea how much this means to me. You are honestly one of my best friends. You really are a good friend. Hell I've probably lost all my IRL friends and yet you're still here and you're so kind to me. This paragraph nearly brought me to tears actually. It's so nice to have someone understand what I'm going through. I cannot stand to really be here feeling this pain anymore but like you're so kind to me. Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I'll let you know if I need anything and I'll talk to you if I feel I need to. Thank you.
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@HEXER I've gotten all that I really need to talk about in the posts above so that's pretty much what I'm going through.
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@HEXER that makes me so happy that i made you feel like that... im so glad i can help you... that makes me happy.. :]
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@HEXER wow
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