Dude. (Vent)
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I’ve had such a horrible… fucking… Week. Or couple of weeks. It’s been non stop stress, non stop worrying, non stop everything. I’m so fucking tired. And no one truly realizes how tired I am. I’ve been suicidal, exhausted, drained, urgey, stressed… Trying to make sure those around me don’t worry too much. It’s just been everything. I’m not trying to be a burden… or a problematic sack of shit, but it all puts me down and worses everything for me. I think. That I’m actually dead inside. I used to say that as an edgy thing… But I’m actually. Dead. Inside. And I can’t do anything about it. My girlfriend asks if I need a break, but a break won’t do me any good. Not even taking a week off school will do me any good. It’s everything. Everything is so complicated. I wish sometimes I was sent off. I dont know how much longer I can take this. I’ve been in arguments, I’ve been scared of my grades. I’ve been being catcalled, verbally harassed by guys at my school, anxious to go to school, worried and concerned and stressed about my girlfriends mental health, worried she’s gonna do something, worried that I’m gonna do something, I’ve been relapsing, Ive been contemplating suicide, and it’s not fun. I don’t know what else to do. Everything is piling up on me. I feel like I’m just… not enough. My mom makes me uncomfortable, I can’t even stand to be home anymore for fear she’ll be home and not off two states away with her best friend. Which id prefer at this point. She makes my girlfriend uncomfortable too. I hate it all. I hate it. I don’t know what to do. What do I do? What do I do…
And don’t make this topic all about yourselves or claim you have it worse. I don’t need that shit right now. I really don’t. And if you’re coming here to say so, leave. Cause I don’t need that rn.
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@Hexed-To-Death If you could change one huge thing about your current situation, what would you change?
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@Duchess living.
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@Hexed-To-Death
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@InvalidBandit :/
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@Hexed-To-Death Well… Is there anyone you could contact at the school to stop the school bullying?
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@Duchess I don’t think any teachers gonna help with sexual verbal harassment :( sadly.
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@Hexed-To-Death Hm. Well if it’s a serious event, they have to do something. Maybe having a friend vouch on your side would be helpful too. If you know anyone at school who would.
