So what's been happening recently? What tf is wrong with me?

[A Former User]

Other than a decline in my mental? Oh not much.

My dad not listening to me at all and thinking everything I do is wrong
My mom making me uncomfortable and also acting all high and mighty like usual
My brother being disgusting towards me, both in a creepy way and in a genuinely mean way
My teachers being concerned about me every day cause sob in the bathrooms and hallways and in class every day
Me feeling like a horrible boyfriend cause I’m depressed and can’t do anything really for myself or for my partner
My room getting messier and messier
My sanity declining to a point where I’m scared of myself
My hormonal drive being through the fucking roof I’m becoming astronomically masochistic
Intense fear of men and uncomfortable feelings around men increasing
Having no energy or all the energy in the world
Constant mood swings
No sleep or all the sleep in the world
Flashbacks, PTSD, paralysed movement, zoning out

So basically all the fun stuff.

[A Former User]

@Vampire-Prince-Cyx Why’re you afraid of men?

[A Former User]

@Duchess because of my brother and because of horrible experiences in the past with creepy guys, and uh- it’s really hard for a guy to gain my trust after that and I’m just scared of something happening to me

[A Former User]

@Vampire-Prince-Cyx I see what you mean. I’ll be honest, I have a level of distrust in males, but. Only because I feel like most act the same (only looks for pictures and manipulates you to think you’re spscial when your’re just one of many side people they have while flirting with many other people at once). But I know that’s not everyone. Not all guys are bad. I don’t know what you’ve experienced, but not all guys are bad. I hate that guys have a bad rap for being pervs…

I used to trust one guy on the face of this planet. My discord friend. And I felt like that was enough. It was. I didn’t care about trusting anyone else. Let alone guys. But I met Tree and much later on, I met Shazz and I think my faith has been restored a bit. I didn’t have any weird encounters with guys irl, but. I knew this one guy online that shook everything up for me. I trusted absolutely no one but that one friend I had. I learned not all guys want to use you. Not all guys are bad guys. I can’t change your weird experiences with the current people in your life, but I hope you don’t have to continue to feel uncomfortable.