Song I made about my SH habits recently. (tw: depressing lol.)

[A Former User]

I stand at the foot of the bed
A million thoughts in my head
I turn to all the different reflections
And I’m covered in bandaids

I tell myself I’m fine and sane
You scream at me you don’t know if I’m safe
I don’t know either I’ll say
But you matter more right now today

Don’t break at the site of the wounds
Rip like paper and snipped into two
All I am is another one of you
Bandaids fall…
Bandaids.

They just keep on coming off
They wash away with blood
And all I am, breathing stops
As my skin drips away
I hold my breath
As I feel the eyes on my skin
It burns and I fall down
As my world slips away

I stand in the shower for about an hour
A million pieces of me shatter
I turn to all the creatures at the other side

I wipe away all the evidence
Play it off as bandaids ripping at my skin
Ripping me apart
And I just blame it always on something else

Don’t freak at the site of the scene
Rip like cardboard, vicious and mean
I try to cover it all away but the bandaids…

They just keep on coming off
They wash away with blood
And all I am, breathing stops
As my skin drips away
I hold my breath
As I feel the eyes on my skin
It burns and I fall down
As my world slips away

They just keep on falling off…
I’ve tried so hard today.
Go hide it with my clothes.
But they see anyways.
I’m trying my best, I know youre scared I’m sorry.
So many bitter days
Heading my way…
The bandaids
My wet skin
I can no longer keep it in
Cause they just…

They just keep on coming off
They wash away with blood
And all I am, breathing stops
As my skin drips away
I hold my breath
As I feel the eyes on my skin
It burns and I fall down
As my world slips away
And I’m trying so hard not to fail
A relapsed period of time
And reversed every line
It’s like a distant memory
Bugs crawl into my skin
As I open up for them
I’m ready I am close
As my skin just drips away.