tired of pretending atp, life rn
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no im not okay lmao, i lost my best friend in the whole world, my grandma, 2 weeks ago and i can’t stop thinking about her. all i can think about is how i should’ve called her more, and how i didn’t talk to her enough and i don’t have anyone who really understands how i feel right now, and it hurts. it really does. i feel like i failed to be a good granddaughter, and i wanna cry about it so badly, i feel like i failed her so much. and all i wanna do is say im so sorry nana and hug her but i can’t do that anymore. i just feel so fucking horrible. i wish i hadn’t been such a teenager and i had called her and we talked more often and i should’ve cared more, and i should’ve seen her more often. and i don’t know how to stop feeling guilty.
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to add to that, i feel like the person who would understand and who i probably need most right now needs space, and im gonna respect that so im alone is how it feels. because yeah i can vent but no one really understands the guilt and hurt i feel.
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@finneass hey, just rant to me in my dms okay? I’m here for you always. I’m so sorry you have to deal with all of this man.
