screaming crying throwing up
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ok so like on a scale of 1-10 im 1000% precent cooked but its really just my mind playing tricks w me, now ive been in a VERY serious relationship w this girl that lives near me, but literally idk bro i just idk bc its not that i dont love her bc OBVIOUSLY I DO #ilovemywife but im scared, im scared of what happened last time w my abusive ex happening this time, now im not gonna specify anything but we got a little too “casual” (chappell roan ref?!) today obvi i was very proud of her, she set a boundary w me (something alot of other exes didnt do ahem A) and i made sure not to cross it but im still scared she’ll pull a my ex move and call it r@pe even tho she initiated doing it, but I KNOW SHE WONT SO WHAT IS WRONG W ME? #trauma and also my ex legit tried telling my gf i was dating 3 ppl, like girl what? we was on call laughingabt that shit i aint no “wolf in sheeps clothing” cmon grow a pair quit tryna ruin relationships bc ur bitter son </3 anyways n out :3
Someone Buy Me Roses And Someone Burn The Church !! ^^
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razorbladesweetie making references while talking about abuse seems weird
Does life ever change for the good?
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Almost as if she purposely or intentionally left some things out?
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초콜릿 바 idk what you mean by this but it isnt relating to what i was talking about i wasnt “leaving anything out” tf?
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Gamizavier its how i cope, like how some people make jokes abt their trauma i do very similar
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im still scared she’ll pull a my ex move
but I KNOW SHE WONT SO WHAT IS WRONG W ME
You obviously love this girl, and she is obviously okay with setting boundaries, so there is some level of trust and respect. I understand that things feel/are different from your previous relatioship. A lot of times when people come out of a hard/traumatic relationship, they havent fully allowed their brains to trust anyone else, even if they want to trust someone again. That’s not a bad thing, though. What people have learned about the past is important for the future. Now you know what people are capable of doing.
I don’t think you should discredit your fear, but I’m not trying to say you should be perpetually worried either. If you haven’t already, you should talk to your girlfriend about this fear and how you feel about your future. Do not say something is wrong with you just becase your mind is trying to protect you from a trauma that it’s afraid of experiencing again.
I’m glad your girlfriend made boundaries with you, and I think it’s important for both her and yourself to keep that communication consistent. Maybe even ask her before doing anything else in the future to send the message that you respect any other boundaries she might have. And whenever you feel like it’s a good time in your relationship, talking about these boundaries is important so you know if she feels any different. I know a lot of people say communication is key, but it truly is.
