LEAVE ME ALONE.
quiet, quiet, quiet, quiet, ayy, leave me alone.
Why does it still burn
I can’t get over the feeling. I need a break from everything. I can’t keep sitting here with this unbearable pain. I have to pretend I’m fine but it still hurts. I just wanna be able to love and be loved without.feeling scared and feeling depressed because I’m so hurt and scarred and traumatized. I just wanna be okay again and be held again without anxiety and pain. I feel so lost and I haven’t felt okay in forever. I’m tired of promises being broken. I just wanna cry. I’m on the verge of giving up man. I just wanna let go of myself.
Poem / vent I think. More or less a poem.
He stares at me
At my lips
Like he wants a taste of my rose water
And I stand back, tensed.
But somehow I’m numb again
I feel a force, breathe against my neck
Could it be him again? Luring me
You’re only what you make
I made a monster
You’re only a monster
Monsters I make always
And break I do too
Because I am the monster I made
I’m numb yet powerful
Taste my sweet honey dew sugar
And tell me, for what does it please you?
Are you broken like the souls, damned to your repulsion?
Or are you a bond of glue, suffocating in the air tight seal you once drained the life from