My views on my own trauma.
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So, you know that word. “Trauma” - “Trauma is a pervasive problem. It results from exposure to an incident or series of events that are emotionally disturbing or life-threatening with lasting adverse effects on the individual’s functioning and mental, physical, social, emotional, and/or spiritual well-being.”
I have trauma. Some things have given me such deep and horrible ptsd it’s hard to function. But I never really care? I don’t consider my trauma to be real sometimes, nor do i consider myself to have really any emotional damage. I was thinking about some of the horrible shit I’ve seen and how I’ve managed to forget it entirely until brought up again in my head just now. And I was thinking “Am i really traumatized or am I just partially scarred or wounded?” and I realize now, that me thinking if I am from a horrible event that’d change my life is definitely a sign I might just be telling myself I’m faking so this way it hurts less. I don’t consider my problems to be real sometimes and ignore or avoid them to reduce emotional bleeding… It’s because other people have way worse trauma than I do. I got trauma dumped on my mom on september 24th, 2022, 5 am. She threatened to hurt me, screamed at me, and trauma dumped on me. I figured since my shit wasn’t that bad… that i could never have trauma or never have emotional scarring. I have been so afraid to tell other people that I’m traumatized or emotionally broken and damaged, because I’m scared I’m overexaggerating, and it’s hard to open up about shit like that.
Which brings me to my next statement. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ONE UP OTHERS ON THEIR OWN PERSONAL STRUGGLES AND TRAUMA. I HATE IT. Because that kind of behavior has led me to believe that my issues aren’t that bad, that i don’t need help, that I’ll get over it. it’s been 11 years now, and I’m still wounded and just now am I realizing I am scarred, and traumatized. DO NOT, ONE UP SOMEONE ELSES PAIN, IT IS LIKE A PUNCH TO THEIR HEART AND THEY DESERVE TO BE HEARD. Or they’ll just end up like me.
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx ik this isfar off from the topic but I can rap this…is that bad?
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@The-Red-X i- i have no idea
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@The-Red-X do it
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@Calistaa I don’t post raps
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@The-Red-X :(
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@Calistaa sorry
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx The amount of the resulting aftermath from certain trauma can depend, but sometimes it can be a challenge to tell whether the trauma you have received can actually vary between levels that people think ‘trauma’ can land on.
Trauma is trauma, but there’s no doubt that later on, thoughts can arise from prior experiences, leading to a kind of, reconsideration of it all.
I’m sorry that you’ve been through your trauma, but the good thing is is being open about some concerns in which you may have ultimately, because holding in trauma could be overwhelming, depending.
The oneing up is something that shouldn’t happen, I agree - everyone needs their hearing in what someone may have to say. -
misread that.
“Trauma is a perverted problem”
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