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RE: think i might be quitting from this forum once and for all.posted in User Announcements
h4lfie (yes i did realise i made a goodbye post before this and now i feel stupid for making this… but we dont talk about that shush shh shh hush quiet)
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RE: Heyaposted in Advice
Shazz_ we all love you here, man, no matter what. i’m very sorry you feel this way, i get the feeling. i hope you feel better. just know none of us dislike you at all.
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think i might be quitting from this forum once and for all.posted in User Announcements
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honestly, its a hard decision, but i haven’t used this forum for much more than saying “hello!” every once in a while. thank you all for being there for me through the years. i have a job now, lol, so i gotta tend to that now, giving me even less time to do anything with. last thing i gotta say is that i love yall more than anything. good run, goodbye!
(i’ll probably end up popping in within the next 6 months to a year honestly, but what i mean by quitting is that i’ll be posting a LOT LOT LOT less than I ever did.)
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Misery ~ Pupsiesposted in Song Lyrics
I miss that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
I love you so much that it’s dripping
Dripping from my arms and such
I’m sorry, I know I’m too much
To love, to trust, I’m nothing, but-
I miss that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
You are what I could believe in
Since I have nobody else
I keep screaming, I keep breathing
It’s the living I can’t help
It’s the misery 'cause you can tell me
How much that you care
And I know it’s true but yet
You need to get me out your hair
Is what we have special?
What’s that mean?
Why can’t you choose me, is it greed?
This isn’t lust, no fairy dust, it’s blunt
It’s what you see
Misery in knowing I love you
And had to leave
The misery that I can’t shake
The misery I bleed
I miss that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
But it’s real, that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
Hurts to feel that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
How to heal that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
I miss that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
God, I feel that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
Why only in the evening?
'Cause I know that you care (I know that you care)
'Cause I swear it ain’t fair (I swear it ain’t fair)
I’ll slit my wrists and show you
I’ll dare to do anything
I love you, I love you, with everything
Hurts to feel that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I ask, am I just dreaming?
How to heal that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
The kind where you are nice to me
Sometimes, heal that kind of misery
The kind where you are nice to me
But only in the evening
So I wish that I was dreaming
But only in the evening, in the evening
God, I wish that I was dreaming
I miss that kind of misery -
Heyaposted in Advice
Maybe this won’t be helpful if I decide to talk about this on this forum, or maybe it might be (I’ve known many of you for years) but I’ve been needing some reassurance because maybe I’ve been the one doing wrong
I guess I’ve just been, wanting to be personally loved and appreciated by a person I could call my girlfriend, but I’ve been through so many people it’s probably embarrassing and, I hate myself for it. The counter’s stopped at 6, at least of what I can remember. Each experience felt really nice, knowing that maybe this person was the one for me but as every one of those experiences went, it proved to be really heavy on me and light on them. I don’t think I’ve ever treated anyone badly or intentionally hurt, but a trend I’ve come to realize is just what pettiness can do in a relationship. I was cheated on twice, lied to, hurt because I in my honest heart didn’t know something my significant other may have taken it as. And those feelings when you’ve felt hopeless and betrayed really affected me the most. I get so hypertensive I wish I could just reverse time.
I think I also overkill a lot of what I have done as a sign of my appreciation towards those people I wanted to love; some of you may know that I write my own music, and I often create pieces for a lot of them. I probably do so much that it’s considered a risk to continue.
I try really hard to find the peace whenever it is possible in a relationship, but the sad result has always been something that could’ve practically been prevented, and understanding their emotions in those situations is honestly my specialty, as long as they know I want to be genuine in helping them as their boyfriend.I just rarely open up about this, some of you lovely people might expect someone like me to be perfect but I have my flaws, and I have wishes to be personally known and loved, understood and embraced. I’ve had some acute depression over these years, also due to family, demands and events, but especially just, thinking about loneliness. I guess that’s my fear because I always want to invite someone into my happiness and to share it with me. But it’s been very silent for me, emotionally.
Thanks for listening ❤️🩹
