I've hit the point again.
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My room has clothes everywhere, plates and cups, plastic bottles, trash, wires, chokers, makeup… just everywhere. Ive hit the point again. I remember when it was worse before. I’m trying to get better but I don’t think it’s working. I’m gonna work on it over the weekend. Hopefully it doesn’t take too long and I don’t lose motivation… But I haven’t been okay, living in a house I don’t wanna be in, sobbing every night and every day, laying in bed or sitting by my computer. So. I don’t know. It just sucks? To get back to this point I guess? So… yeah.
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx So does your room’s cleanliness effect your mood?
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@Duchess no, my mood effects it
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx Ohhh, okay. So you’ve been feeling not so well lately? Has it just been a feeling overall or for something specific?
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@Duchess my family fucking sucks man, and I feel like I want to run away from them. I feel uncomfortable, disgusted, unheard, unseen, small… Irrelevant and stupid
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx Do you feel like the outcasted one?
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@Duchess all the time :(
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx Is there something about you that they just won’t accept or do you just feel like the least favorite person?
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@Duchess no I just feel like I do everything wrong and that maybe I’d just be better off running away. Also my brother and my mother make me extremely uncomfortable so I don’t feel safe in the home and I get nightmares of my brother
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@Vampire-Prince-Cyx I think a lot of family seem to see the faults rather wins.
