venting to release stress
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when i was really little I told my mom i wanted to play bass guitar, flute, saxophone, play 5 instruments. now i do and im stressed out as fuck man. i have lessons everyday, i cant out my all into anything, i rarely have time for myself. my mom has a limited time om my phone for me to interactnqith other people because i need to โstay focused on my studiesโ and all i want is to have time to be a teenager. and im stressed out. i just wanna play soccer and volleyball because i love those sports but they interrupt my band time. my mom is so scared i wont get a scholarship and ill be on student loans like she is shes projecting hella hard and its fucking up my mental health. im tired. im just tired. i just wanna scroll on tiktok all day, go outside, have time to write songs and basslines like i love doing but i cant. and whenever i complain she says its what adult life is like. like i swear to god ive tried everything to get out of it. i even tried the suicidal excuse because usually it works. which i am suicidal at times but im better at handling it now. she just said i was being dramatic. i just need a break. i really do. like the 2 weeks im usually at my grandparents are peaceful as fuck. i just feel soโฆ calm yk? and i dont get that because of fuckjncsuse of fucking band camp. i dont know what to do anymore but i cant handle everything thats going on. im trying to bounce back from a lot of grief, trying to stay up on my lessons and i cant do it al, especially not alone. but thats what i am. fucking alone
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Wait for humans to realize the reason they live stressful lives is because the people before them made life the way it is and that theyโre the ones continuing it. (irrelevant)
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@a7x-isbetter-thanu I can see why your mom wouldnโt approve of you doing the sports that you truly love, over learning 5 instruments that are causing you the initial stress, and I know thatโs important to your mom, and she wants you to stay focused because being musically oriented is really good - even that though, can be too much of a roadblock when it gets in the way of what you truly want to do. learning what you want out of your free will should be the priority first, ya know? That isnโt necessarily the case all of the time, but I think others would be a lot better when given that choice.
I understand, Finn. Does your mom understand the extent of your stress? Or has she, but figures that itโll just go away for you? And sheโs focused more on the scholarship rather than you? -
Shazz_ shes more focused on the scholarship than me thats the problem
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@a7x-isbetter-thanu Have you told her that she might be focused more on that than you? I know you said you use excuses to talk to your mom, but does she realize that about herself? Just a little?
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Shazz_ nope :|
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@a7x-isbetter-thanu I hope sooner rather than later, sheโll realize eventually - Iโll hope for that
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@a7x-isbetter-thanu said in venting to release stress:
all i want is to have time to be a teenager
You should get that opportunity.
One thing about some parents is that they press their kids for success despite it being extremely stressful to maintain. On one hand, itโs good to be encouraged and pushed a little, I think this is going a bit far. Youโre playing all those instruments, have daily lessons, have a time limit on your phone, have the pressure of a scholarship and stuff, and now band camp? Thatโs wayyy too much. Iโm sorry youโre doing all this alone right now. Youโve told your mom about the stress right? Because thereโs no way she could handle all this and be a happy.
โ ๐ถ If words fail, music speaks! ๐ถ
