i kinda did an "oh no.." since ive been gone for a couple days.

[A Former User]

uhm… my mental stability honestly has just been getting worse. like its really hard for me to even get out of bed half the time. and my mom and everything else is honestly making it worse. i dont know how to cope with anything anymore so all i do now is self-harm bc i dont know what to do. and thats what i did. ive been self-harming everyday almost and it honestly kinda used to hurt but now i just laugh about it. i dont think im okay. i say that i am but every time i actually think about it, im not. theres only two people now that make me smile and i actually mean it. but half the time that happens i always think negative about something and it turns to shit.

[Shazz_]

@ry_rylie I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, Rylie. I still feel like there’s a better alternative than harming yourself, but I know it’s difficult to know what to do exactly. I just don’t want you to feel like you need to hurt yourself to any extent.
How is your mom making things worse?

[A Former User]

Shazz_ she keeps treating me differently. like for example, she doesnt yell and scream at my brother but she screams and yells at me for everything i do. she threatens me that shes going to send me away. she takes my phone half the time and then gives it back an hour or so later and says “you said something wrong so i took your phone away.” like bro.

[A Former User]

Shazz_ she told my friend that i was useless and i dont do anything.

[Shazz_]

@ry_rylie Oh wow /:
I’m sorry, Rylie - it does seem like she isn’t doing this for any definitive reason, comparing your brother, other than maybe the things you’ve done to yourself as part of her influence to you, but it seems wrong for her to treat you differently regardless, I can understand.
You aren’t useless - you do many many gracious acts, whether it be on here or in the real world, and I’m sure your friend wouldn’t think twice about it, even if your mom told them otherwise

[A Former User]

Shazz_ aww… your amazing shazz. you made my night so much better. and yea, i do agree that she shouldnt treat me differently but yk, just makes me feel like more of a disappointment than i already am.

[Shazz_]

@ry_rylie Even so, you may feel like one, but you truly aren’t at all - I want you to know that.
I hope everything clears up soon, Rylie