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I’ve been going through a lot lately. I feel like a shitty boyfriend
I feel like my girlfriend doesn’t like me sometimes
I feel annoying
I feel weird
I feel odd
I feel out of place
I feel like someone else
I hate myself I hate myself always I always fuck shit up I’ve been overstimulated it’s hard to think anymore
I feel fat and I hate my body I wanna be perfect I wanna be skinny
I hate waking up to another day because it’s been like this forever and I hate it I want a normal like a normal week a normal month a normal year I hate this life
I hate this pressure I feel to keep being happy and keep going because others around me matter more
I feel this pressure that if I fuck up once then everyone’s gonna just fall apart
I don’t wanna do this anymore but I’ll feel bad if I don’t sit there and care and pretend and fake it cause this shit wont kill me right? I’ll just find help when I’m older right? -
@Cyx I hope you feel better through all of this <3
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@Cyx Bro im sorry sorry your going through that im always hear if you need to talk.
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But don’t worry it’s okay it’s fine it’s all good I’ll just handle this all like the man I should be right
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I’m too sensitive
I should shut up cause I’m making others upset
I can’t be sad or they’ll be sad
I can’t talk about my issues or they’ll be sad
I can’t say anything or they’ll be sad
I can’t do shit cause I’m afraid that everyone around me will kill themselves or fuckin leave me again -
@Cyx but alas it’s not like I can help anyways no one appreciates the shit I do for them and I’m always putting so much more effort into being happy and appreciative and showing my love and kindness why can’t I just get that same fuckin treatment back
Sorry if you feel offended it’s just how I’ve been feeling every single goddam day
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i care cyx, and if you wanna talk im here and i understand. its okay to feel that way becsuse we all do but you have to lean on the people that are there, and no thats not weak its human, it takes a village hun, and we’re right here. im sorry that things suck right now and if you wanna talk, i wanna listen
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@finneass and im so proud of you for still being here and pushing through even through the worst!!
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@finneass thanks Finn. It means a lot to me…
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@Cyx ofc
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@Cyx said in A post a lot of people won't really care about:
I feel fat and I hate my body I wanna be perfect I wanna be skinny
do a face reveal. we will see how perfect you are
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@Serco915 that doesnt fucking help lmao
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@finneass damn i suck at being a therapist 😔
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@Serco915 k bro.
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@Cyx I know it might not mean much coming from me, But i hope things get better for you.
I went through a phase of trying to find out who i wanted to be when i was a teenager, it comes and goes, you’ll find yourself, I know you will!
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@Cyx What exactly makes you feel out of place/weird? It’s normal to feel that way, but people usually do because of lack of self-confidence. Which you clearly dont have much from what I’m reading. Do you not feel confident even with your girlfriend?
I remember you posting about you not liking your body in the past. If you were “skinnier,” do you think you’d feel less out of place and weird? Or does your physical image not have anything to do with feeling weird/annoying.
The pressure to be happy in the middle of sadness is real. I really hate that people feel like they have to hide their true feelings. Sadness is just as valid as happiness. Im sure you know that. putting it into action is a lot more difficult. I think overcoming that fear is really hard, but it is possible.