I FUCKING HATE IT HERE AND I HATE MY MOM.

[A Former User]

Im not fucking apologizing to you, woman.
((yeah I deleted this and put it into the vent category cause I was rushing so I accidentally put it in gaming))

I was overstimulated yesterday, I was in a bad position and I had negative zoomiez. I already told everyone I was incredible irritated, incredibly upset, and incredibly not in the mood, but instead my mom came up to me and started physically touching me in a way that made me uncomfortable. She was messing with my head, aggressively touching it, and then like grabbing me, and I had walked away from her, lashed out like a way that a toddler having a tantrum would (rightfully so too because she wasnt listening) and then I ended up crying. She gave me the “you done fucked up” face, and then walked off. Mind you, I was overwhelmed with her, and all the sounds around me, and then she did that when I already told her stop, not once, not twice, but three times. She always says “no” and “stop’” are complete sentences, but can’t give me the space I need?? I wasn’t mean to anyone in the fucking house, until she finally provoked me and I lashed out at only her. Then she comes up to me today and is like “when are you going to apologize for the asshole that you were?”

Here’s the argument that we had, mind you, I stayed silent during the whole thing because if I had opened my mouth she would’ve hurt me, and “treated me like a grown adult, and beat tf outta me”: her: you wanna sit here and act like a grown adult because you’re emotional? I’ll treat you like a fucking grown bitch. Don’t ever treat me like you’re grown. You wanna be bad, and be that kid, and wanna act like some entitled white kid, I’m not that fucking parent. Oh you wanna be all upset and get upset with me and give me your fucking attitude because I’m bothering you? You sit there and-

One sec she just yelled at me again I gotta wait to post cuz I’m scared of her rn. Just one sec guys.

Okay so to finish, she was just yelling at me and then walking back into the kitchen, expecting me to apologize for what I apparently did (which was put her in her place) and then afterwards, she came back into the kitchen thinking I would be all cool with her and shit, trying to supposedly make me laugh, but she just made me fucking sit there and contemplate my death so now, I’m sitting here in the kitchen while she plays physically with me and toys with me and acts as if I’m some fucking random stray cat that you can just touch, and then she SCREAMS at me just now, after I said I don’t wanna be touched because I’m upset and i was upset cause I was yelled at, she wants me to sit there and take it, and then tells me: DONT PUT YOURSELF INTO A POSITION WHERE YOURE GONNA GET YELLED AT, AND DONT PUT ME INTO A FUCKING POSITION WHERE I FEEL ATTACKED AND THREATENED, BECAUSE YOU FUCKING ATTACKED ME, AND I ALMOST FUCKING RIPPED YOU A NEW ASSHOLE, AND I HAD TO SWALLOW THAT SHIT, AND NOW YOU DO TOO. AND YOURE ONLY FUCKING REASON WAS “Oh I HaVe cRAmPs” (when this is a lie, I told her exactly why I was upset) AND THEN YOUR BROTHER HAS TO COME IN AND SAY SOME SHIT, WHEN YOU SHOULDVE, AND I SHOULDNT HAVE TO FUCKING CHASE YOU AROUND TO APOLOGIZE!!! ( Which I don’t need to because I was very clear about my feelings, and my brother came in clutch with that because no, lady, I didn’t fucking send ___, he sent himself, and I was worried that you were gonna yell at me because I was already crying and I was nonverbal and I couldn’t actually fucking talk! Now if you took my issues seriously, you wouldn’t be sitting there whining about how your child put you in your fucking place.)

[A Former User]

My mom makes me terrified. I had to shut up and let her yell at me, and do exactly what she told of me, and she kept on coming back into the kitchen to scream at me and make her point seem “more valid” when it just made her seem like a fucking asshole.

I love my dad but he didn’t do shit. He didn’t do shit to help me in that situation…