you ever read the comments on soundcloud (tw mentions of suicide)
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im actually concerned for some of the people in the comments of the bridge, because i honestly get thr feelings of relaying to thst song and trying to figure out why youre so fucked up that no one can deal with you and wanting to die because of it because ive felt that way so many times. or the feeling of being out of a relationship thats no good for you, and just wishing you could go back because now things are so complicated. and just seeing people want to die because of other people who never deserved them brings out this rage for a few people i know. and i just hate that anyone has to relate to that song, because i did, for a while, have recently. its just, man the world is fucked up. why do people have to be toxic? and why does some innocent person have to end up mentally fucked because of them? why do we even have feelings in the first place? feeling hurts a lot. theres songs i cant listen to without crying because it hurts to feel that feeling again. and yeah i think a lot of people see me as strong and perfect, i have a 5.0 gpa, i play 6 instruments, im graduating my junior year, i was invited to the arts governors school in my area.im in the top 20 high school players in my region, im the 2nd in my district. i end up reminding people that i have clinical depression, adhd and panic disorder so nothing comes easy at all to me. and a lot of things cause me unnecessary anxiety. but honestly, i relate to thr bridge, a lot. i wish people wouldnt leave me so quickly, because people who i really care about id go to war with the world. and its crazy how someone can create pain in your life for them to heal. and you can still love them with everything. and you can still be lost without them, and its funny how when you make mistakes youre so fucking horrible but when they make them it doesnt matter. part of why i hate those friends who tell you that youre right 24/7. it does nothing for you or this person. kind just brought up pent up anger ig, and i know this person got all theirs out because they took it out on me đź’€ i havent let it out to this person because i dont like yelling or being pissed off for long periods of time. and i said i was over it, because im over them fully and couldnt care less about them, i just fucking hate them now for fucking up my mental health the way they did and still claiming to love me. theyre just my next topic in therapy lmao. i dont think i ever will scream at them the way i want to. so its fine but i just needed to vent about that.
anyways, if you wanna listen, heres the link: https://m.soundcloud.com/d4vddd/the-bridge
and yes, i do get all of that from that song đź’€
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@finneass said in you ever read the comments on soundcloud (tw mentions of suicide):
its crazy how someone can create pain in your life for them to heal. and you can still love them with everything. and you can still be lost without them, and its funny how when you make mistakes youre so fucking horrible but whrn they make them it doesnt matter.part of why i hate those friends who tell you that youre right 24/7. it does nothing for you or this person.
People just dont get how much strength it takes to still show up every day in someones life, basically with a smile on their face, ready to deal with their nonsense again and again. Because they love that person. Some people know they hurt them, but they just want to feel affirmed that they arent wrong, so they go to friends or family to strengthen their already existing pride. And then when you make mistakes, it makes that person feel more affirmed inside that you deserve the pain they are giving you. But when they makes mistakes, you not letting it go just like they did, makes that person think youre being unforgiving. Which will also result in them feeling you are even more deserving of the pain. So at that point, yeah. You let it go. Because it isnt like you have a choice. They already made you feel like a bad person.
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@Duchess this is honestly so true and im glad you said it
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It sucks leaving a relationship that you thought would last forever only for it to turn out toxic and end badly. I’ve had one of those relationships recently too and sometimes I regret having that relationship but I have learned a lot of things from it and I was able to grow and move on. I understand that people who listen to that song feel like they want to end their life by relating to that song because I wanted to end mine too after feeling alone and convincing myself that I would always be alone but I found out that wasn’t true. I really hope those people find out that they’ll never be alone forever, everyone has a special person in their life that will stay with them through their life and it comes with time. I get being mad at a person that fucked you up mentally, I’ve had to experience that a lot, and sometimes I still hold a grudge against those people but I learned it’s better to just ignore those thoughts or else it’ll turn out badly; like you telling a person something or doing something to a person that you regret doing, in the end it’ll just hurt you more. I hate how so many people can relate a lot of negative emotions to a song, I really wish that life wasn’t this brutal but the truth always hurts, even with people that you thought were different from how they actually are. But we can only dream that people can learn and be better, and hope that life can get better.
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♡~Zofya~♡ said in you ever read the comments on soundcloud (tw mentions of suicide):
I really hope those people find out that they’ll never be alone forever, everyone has a special person in their life that will stay with them through their life and it comes with time
this right here, i really though i’d be alone and never be able to trust anyone for a while tbh, and then i ended up where i am and im so happy with myself right now
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@finneass I’m glad that you’re doing way better and I can say the same about myself <3
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♡~Zofya~♡ <3333
