An introduction of:

[A Former User]

Not myself personally, but a problem I have that people often misunderstand and blame me for.

I have a memory problem. When I get into a big (stupid) argument with someone over something specific, I’ll forget a lot of stuff about it.
The things I said.
The things they said.
Why we were arguing.
What it was even about.
When it happened.
How it started.

Aside from that, I’ll forget conversations I’ve had with people.
I forget fun things I did with people, ranging from actually getting the hell out of my house and doing something (a rare namira thing to do), to just playing a game with a friend or family member, can be board game, card game, or video game.
It can be an event I’ll forget.

The point is, I forget a lot of things for no reason.
I forget the names of people.
I don’t study because I can’t. Even if I do, I won’t remember anything I read.

I also remember things incorrectly,
I loved to read books when I was younger, and when I’d get especially bored and have nothing to do I’d re-read books and vaguely remember a part from that specific scene, but it never happens and it makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me because I know it happened, but when I look, no, it in fact did not happen.

[A Former User]

And I know memory loss is something normal and all people go through.
But when I say it’s a problem, I mean its a recurring thing that happens to me way more often than it should.

Reason 1 for my terrible brain capacity:
When I was young, ranging from age 1-3, my dad had buddies over and he’d know that they gave me rum. Alcohol. And admits to me often that he allowed them to do it.
The reason you’re not allowed to drink alcohol before a certain age: Your brain is still developing, and alcohol fucks with the brain, as we know. When the alcohol fucks with an brain in the making, it’s hard for it to ever fully develope.

Reason 2: Bad memory is something I suppose I’ve inherited, as it’s not particularly uncommon in my family.

Reason 3: For about 4 years now, I’ve been failing to get adequate sleep for my age range. I’m supposed to get 8-10 hours, but I’m lucky if I get 7. I fall asleep easily and often earlier than I intend to, yet I can never do it for long, often waking up 3 hours later. I do not take naps.

[A Former User]

@Namira said in An introduction of::

But when I say it’s a problem, I mean its a recurring thing that happens to me way more often than it should.

Please especially consider that.

[A Former User]

@Namira said in An introduction of::

Reason 3: For about 4 years now, I’ve been failing to get adequate sleep for my age range. I’m supposed to get 8-10 hours, but I’m lucky if I get 7. I fall asleep easily and often earlier than I intend to, yet I can never do it for long, often waking up 3 hours later. I do not take naps.

I’d like to say that I have insomnia, but according to Dr. Who Gives a Fuck it’s being unable to fall asleep in the first place. I also don’t want to say I have something if I ever go to a doctor and find out I don’t, I forgot what the word for that is.
Also, some “real insomniac” fuckhead is bound to try to pull some dumb shit and gatekeep insomnia from me because I’m “not a real insomniac” for whatever dumbshit reasons they might spew.

[A Former User]

@Namira said in An introduction of::

people often fail to misunderstand and blame me for.

stated because I did in fact have someone get upset with me because I failed to remember something

[Yutaznnn]

ok

[A Former User]

@Namira said in An introduction of::

people often fail to misunderstand

…
People fail to understand

[A Former User]

Yeah fixed that mb…