tired of being "better" than everyone else.

[finn.in.outer.space.]

im tired of being put on a pedestal because im good at what i do, i want a break. i want a nap. i just want to have a good night with my boyfriend without being pestered about band. band was my escape. my way to get away from the world and just drown myself in the music and now i can’t even enjoy it because it’s a fucking sport at this point. i have to keep constantly grinding and being at or higher than the standard that everyone holds me to when all i want is a nap. i barely sleep. i barely eat. im stressed out and losing will to do anything at this point and people being on my ass 24/7 about band this, band that, audition for this, audition for that, show so and so you’re better than them shit is fucking up my head man. i just want a nap. im not okay im in therapy so im getting better but its like every time i get better because of therapy someone is like “hey, why don’t we put even more stress on him and undo everything that he just worked on in therapy.” and it’s annoying me, im so OVER it. im done with it. im done with everything at this point.

[finn.in.outer.space.]

i hate hustle/grind culture because all i want is a FUCKING NAP. i took one on saturday and my parents were like “you need to practice for that band thing, stop sleeping all day and do something. go leave the house, waa waa waa”

[Bi-Myself]

@finneass ikr, like “GO DO SHIT SO WE CAN RETAIN OUR REPUTATION” no i want some fucking rest

[finn.in.outer.space.]

edit: tried to talk to her. she ignored me and said that i was just overreacting.

[A Former User]

I’m too aggressive so I can’t really give advice, but if I were you I woulda been slapped that bitch.