My Easter Day
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Happy Easter evening everyone. I hope you all had wonderful days with your family/friends, and had plenty of food lol!
This year for the first time, my family and I was invited to someone else’s house for the holidays. I was nervous and unsure what to expect because I dont talk to people that often. But now that I experienced that today, it put in a huge perspective to me how much this community has changed me as a person, way beyond the internet.
Time to share a bit about myself lol. Sorry for the lengthy story.
I grew up an extremely shy kid since my first year of school till my last. I was so shy to the point people actually thought I was mute/deaf because I spoke only through body language and writing on paper, even to teachers. Being around people my age, or people in general wasnt actually a common thing for me, believe it or not. After 3rd grade, I was taken out of school untill I was in 7th, and in between that, time, I never spoke to anyone outside my family even once. Those years were a pretty isolating experience for me since I wasnt even allowed to go outside during school days because my parents didnt want social services/cops/busy-bodies to question why we werent in school. My family didnt want people to know about our…living conditions, I guess I’ll say. When I was able to go back to school, I knew absolutely nothing about socializing and since I was already really shy to begin with, I was extremely overwhelmed to actually see so many people and my age. But I still wanted to be around people because it was a huge novelty that I instantly fell in love with. There was just that huge thick wall of fear to actually talk. But today, I think I broke a huge part of that wall and I have nobody to thank besides this community.
When I found mpp, I was still that shy person. But in these years, I’ve grown exponentially because you all gave me the confidence in myself, gave me the chance to practice talking to people, and helped me learn things about life that I wouldnt have ever had the opportunity to learn otherwise. It might sound weird talking about how being online could ever help someone irl, but it has certainly helped me beyond words that I can explain. Today, I was able to actually start a conversation with not only 1 person, but many different people, and I am so proud of myself for my progress. Thinking back to myself durring my darkest times, I’d literally cry over talking to someone, and I look at myself now and Im just – joyfully starting conversations, keeping them going, not making it so awkward, and just being me.
So to you guys who dont think you could ever impact someone online, you can. You might not see the effects instantly, but over time, you are unknowingly a stepping stone for someone’s journey in healing, growing, sharing, and loving.
I love you guys so much
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Awww
