why (TW)
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I just have to talk about this. so basically there’s this dude who’s my friend and we almost hang out regularly in school. and I just want to say that this guy bothers me everyday. he invades my personal space, steals my things, and for some reason is extremely rude to me. also, he has dark humor (which I have too), but takes it to the next level. one time at lunch I jokingly said that I wanted to jump off a cliff, and he said “good, nobody would care anyways”. that told me that he was probably a fake friend, but I didn’t care because he was basically my only friend at the time. another time when we were watching a vid about Egypt when a picture of a pyramid showed up, he randomly made a FLIPPING 9/11 JOKE. also, he calls my art “weird” and calls me a furry everyday. I have one of those “rolling backpacks”, and one day when we were changing periods, he was walking behind me and the last thing I knew he kicked the back of my backpack so hard that it hurt my ankles a lot. and he never apologized. he claimed that I was “going too slow” (when I was speed walking), and that I’m “not going to an airport”. he was making fun of my LITERAL backpack, which serves no purpose but to just hold my stuff in. All I want to say is that I’ve never been straight up rude to this person. I was being really REALLY NICE. And I know a lot of you will say; “But, David! Just tell him to not be ur friend anymore!” And the point is is that I did tell him that but when I did he guilt-tripped me and said I was being mean. also, this dude thought it was so funny to expose me in front of EVERYONE. He told everyone that I used to draw NSFW, about my crush, that i’m gay and like men, and that I support Israel (also I don’t support Israel or Palestine, I’m just like really confused abt that stuff, sorry if that’s offensive). so now everyone is making fun of me EVEN MORE. my crush now hates me and my teachers think I’m even more weird. i’m now even more depressed and i’ve tried seeing my counselor but she doesn’t give a crap. Caleb, if you’re somehow seeing this, please stop. I’m so tired and I just want this stuff to stop. My parents hate me so I can’t even talk to them, and I have absolutely no idea what to do. I honestly feel like offing myself. I already do self h@rm you know so like why shouldn’t I. and at this point i’m not even trying to make anyone feel bad for me like I genuinely feel terrible. I hate my life. I don’t get why everyone has to be so mean to me and target me. It’s honestly so pointless. I feel so worthless and strange at the same time. I just really want this pain to stop. and again i’m not trying to make anyone feel bad for me or me just wanting attention (becuz I know some ppl are gonna think that). My parents also want me to get therapy. And I don’t feel comfortable doing that. I don’t like talking to someone who I don’t EVEN KNOW ALONE IN A ROOM. sharing all my thoughts and stuff. i’ve tried to get my parents to not get me into therapy but this morning I saw my step-dad filling out a form to get me to sign up for therapy. I tried to tell him I was uncomfortable with having sessions and stuff but he obviously didn’t care. I don’t get that my parents just can’t listen to me. They’re so stubborn and I hate it. I have to go meet my new therapist on Wednesday at 6. I’m scared. I hate this. I really do.
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okay so u should like talk to him he doesn’t have the right to put hands on u i swear like fr stop taling to him he gives weird vibes
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First of all I’m gonna give you the “Let me beat his ass” quote.
Second, fuck that motherfuckin’ school and maybe ask to go to a different one if you really need/want to. If therapy isn’t really helping, find someone; someone on MPPC, me (If I can), or your family members. Take a break to listen to your favourite music or some other hobby you like if you choose to. If you need anything else from me please do, let me or someone else know. <3
