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[divine]

i know, another vent post?

i’m sometimes friends with… toxic people. i suppose. They’ll use me, snap at me, mock me when i get upset… it’s annoying.
But for some DAMN reason, i can’t let go of them. Sure, i can temporarily get rid of them, but i ALWAYS wind up crawling back.
‘i’m done.’ will turn into conversing like normal just an hour later because the other knows if they act like nothing’s wrong it’ll manipulate my brain in such a way that i’ll forget i was upset at them.
BECAUSE I CAN’T STAY MAD AT PEOPLE. I TRY to hold grudges, i TRY to remember ‘hey, this person hurt me. i shouldn’t like them. this is WRONG.’ But i STILL can’t let go of them. It’s like trying to let go of a rope, but it’s tied around your wrist.
because they know that once they seep inside of my head like some sort of disease, make me giggle and feel happy… they can snap at me all they want, i’ll still miss them.