What's this life for..? ((Vent kinda..?))

[A Former User]

Honestly. Like a legit question. Whats the reason why I’m here. I feel like I’m going insane. I have so much shit going on and I feel so afraid I’m just going to lose everyone that I love bc of me struggling and bc of me being suicidal and just not okay. I feel awful bc I honestly haven’t been doing my job with keeping up to make sure everyone is okay and I’m really sorry about that. I haven’t been the same recently bc of the things I’m going through rn it’s really getting to me and I feel so fucking bad if I don’t help you enough. Please dm me if I haven’t done my job right lately. I want to be able to help you guys too but I’m really struggling rn. I’m like legit on the edge of just going outside and see if I just cross the road if I would survive or not. That’s how bad my suicidal thoughts are and I’m really sorry if I’ve made everything about me a lot. I am… I’m really sorry… I don’t want to go to a mental hospital but rn I think that’s the choice I might lead to. I just… idk.

[Shazz_]

@xay-is-hot-duh Life has a lot of meaning, and life for you can mean something else in contrast with another. If you’ve been willing to be your absolute best in helping others, retaining friendships and orienting yourself towards others’ needs, then life for you is something that was meant upon you. The reason you’re here is because you have made it so - you’ve made it with the intention of bringing others’ spirits high, and for that, life for you has been there to fulfill every step you take, towards the direction of actually living not just for yourself, but for others that are around you.
It’s okay :) You don’t have to be sorry because you can’t always help - it’s incredible that you put yourself up to that, and doing your best isn’t necessarily one’s ‘job’, but rather, it’s something that comes from the heart. Don’t bring yourself down, Rylie, because you’ve done so, so much for us. We’ve seen an abundance of things that you’ve done here, and for your friends. You’re an amazing person.
If life has a purpose for you, and it absolutely does, you’re there to achieve anything you ever want, and if bringing others together is what you’re called to do, then that life for you was meant to be. You’re willing to always be there to make others happy, and that’s something that’s way beyond extraordinary.

[A Former User]

@xay-is-hot-duh Everyone has a purpose in life. You help, and you make people feel good, and that’s fantastic. You should be proud of yourself for doing that, when not a lot of people have the willpower and strength to help people, even when you’re suffering yourself, you still out others before yourself, and that’s something we can all appreciate.

But you should also care about yourself too. Your mental health is important. In life, we’re faced with choices we don’t want to have to make, we’re forced to choose between what we feel is right or wrong. You have to understand that, even though you may feel like you have to help everyone, but the unfortunate truth is, we just can’t.

That doesn’t make you a bad person, not even close. We’re only human you know. But the fact that you try your hardest to be the person that other people don’t have in their life is amazing, and I don’t think you should be so hard on yourself. You’re a great person, no matter who tells you otherwise, alright?

Keep fighting on, and don’t let the down times get to you. Amazing people have to take other priorities sometimes, it’s just how it is. We all understand.

[rei]

laugh love live

[A Former User]

@Burger Live, laugh love* said it wrong there…kiddo.

[rei]

@1zzylmao I dont Remember Asking

[A Former User]

@Burger ok