I'm so pissed at my dad rn- (vent/rant)
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My dog ran away (she came back today) and like, I’m sitting in my room, crying. Istg I haven’t cried that much for 2 years, and he had the nerve to yell at me. He called me dumb, stupid, idiotic, etc. Basically telling me it was my fault. And yes, yes it fucking was my fault. But how tf is he gonna tell me that. I just lost my fucking dog, pretty much my best friend, and he was saying that shit to me?! He said I was a bad dog owner, that I didn’t take care of them, that I didn’t care. I took that so fucking hard. Because then he started going off on the fact I got STRAIGHT A’S. “oH, yOu WoRk HaRd FoR yOuR tEaChErS bUt nOt YoUr PaReNtS. fUcK mRs. [insert teacher’s name].” THE FUCK, I WORKED HARD ON THE A’S. DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I WAS, AND HE JUST SAID THAT SHIT. THE REASON I WANTED A’S WAS SO YOU’D BE PROUD. But I guess nothing fucking pleases your ears.
There’s more. Earlier that day, my dad was looking at a girl’s instagram, and my mom asked who it was. He got all mad and called her a paranoid cunt. He went on and on and on about how she’s dumb, stupid, paranoid, etc. BUT THE THING IS, HE CHEATED ON HER IN 2016. They think i’m oblivious to it, but they talk loud asf, I know exactly what happened. She forgave my dad, and he got mad. She just asked. She has every right to be cautious.
I love my dad, he’s not (physically) abusive to me like my birth one. But the way he treats my mom and sisters, is unacceptable. He yells at them for the slightest things. They young. They’re still learning how to do shit. He yelled at my younger sister for throwing up on her bed. “WhY dOnT yOu gO tO tHe ToIlEt”. SHE WAS 3. FUCKING 3. SHE BARELY KNEW HOW TO USE THE BATHROOM.
Like I said, I love my dad, we bond a lot and he’s funny. But he has anger issues, and it’s not okay. The worse part, is that my mom let’s this happen, she let’s it happen because she doesn’t want to upset him more. I’ve seen my dad when we piss him off a lot. And he’s scary. And that’s saying a lot because most people don’t scare me. My mom isn’t happy in the relationship, but she can’t leave him, because she had four kids, three who are biologically his. She’d be leaving 2 with him, and those two, wouldn’t be me, and she doesn’t like that. She knows how my dad will raise them, so she stays. And that makes me so mad. I hate her for raising me and my sisters to stay with someone for other people’s benefits and fear.
My step dad is a fucking two faced asshole who needs to go to a fucking therapist. Also i’m grounded for 3 more days due to “losing” the dog at “not caring” :'D
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@Creati_132 Oh my gosh Creati :(
Wow, I’m really sorry about that - it’s amazing that you’re able to put up with this, the biggest thing being that you truly love him nonetheless. Dads can have tangent nerves like that sometimes, and obviously you didn’t do anything wrong intentionally
I know that you care a lot about what happens, unlike how he thinks that you don’t care at all - trust me, you’re an immaculate person that wouldn’t wish to do anything but to love, and to take in everything that comes to you. You’re amazing for that, and everything above.
I’m very glad that your dog is okay too ^^
Everything aside, you have no idea how happy I am to see you back, Starlight :')
If you need anything at all right now, I’m here for you. I owe you a lot :) -
who do i need to verbally eviscerate
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Same thing here dad anger issues
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