Awakening - Cyx M. (lyrics I wrote - TW: SH)

[A Former User]

No no
Why are you still here
I thought I banished your
Presence in my head
Your teeth gnawing at my neck
Oh no
Why do you still exist
I thought I was safe after
All these years of torture
Crying on the floor is this not
The end…
The end.
The end is this not the
End
The end
What do I do?

Why the hell are you still here, am I going insane again?
Why the hell do my arms burn, do I really want to enter this hell
Why am I feeling so cold, like I want my arms to sting
Why do I feel so alive when I’m around my deepest threat

Oh yes
The lust envelopes me
I’m wide awake at night and
My sleep schedule’s fucked
I forgot how much this sucked
God no
How does this go again?
Why can’t I do it was i
Never guilty in the first place
Was I lying to my own damn face
The end
The end
The end is this not the
End
The end
What do i do?

Why the hell are you still here, am I going insane again?
Why the hell do my arms burn, do I really want to enter this hell
Why am I feeling so cold, like I want my arms to sting
Why do I feel so alive when I’m around my deepest threat

Why am I fucking crying, crying out for my angel to
Come and bring me out and take me to the place I’ve always known
Why am I scared of death but desire brings me so close
Am I okay? Am I okay? AM I OKAY???

Why am I so anxious, I’m having panic attacks
Every day I wanna hurt I wanna make myself pay
And its not fair to you all, who watched me suffer again and again, and again and again…

Why the hell are you still here, am I going insane again?
Why the hell do my arms burn, do I really want to enter this hell
Why am I feeling so cold, like I want my arms to sting
Why do I feel so alive when I’m around my deepest threat

Why am I fucking crying, crying out for my angel to
Come and bring me out and take me to the place I’ve always known
Why am I scared of death but desire brings me so close
Am I okay? Am I okay? AM I OKAY???

[D.e.s.i.r.e]

@JeffMyBeloved the fact i just rapped this in a depressed feeling and made it sound amazing is just -O-O

[D.e.s.i.r.e]

all in silvias voice-

[Rēsh-1]

[A Former User]

D.e.s.i.r.e it’s not meant to be rapped, but alright.

[D.e.s.i.r.e]

@JeffMyBeloved not that kind of hard rap, just depressing way of singing

[A Former User]

That’s nice but I have to shit.

[A Former User]

It does sound good with rap though. Not that I listen to rap…

[A Former User]

jun go shit. Let me watch