Small vent
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Had a rough day yk. My math teacher yelled at me bc I didn't understand a new skill, my favorite character in a book died, uh... my mask for halloween ended up being given to someone else so I had to talk to customer service and get that fixed SMH. It was a long day and I wanna do is come up here and laugh, and that didn't even work. So yeah. Had a rough day, my ex wants to talk to me for some reason, which could go either way, I'm hoping it goes the good way and he's found a way around his at home issues so i can finally be happy with him. I just don't understand why I'm always second to everyone else, "Yeah you're pretty but they're prettier". "Yeah you're good but shes better". Like, why can't I ever be first at something. I'm first at being last... guess I can't complain. I just need to learn to suck it up I guess. Anyway, ily all and I hope you all have an amazing day/night! I hope tomorrow goes great and everything goes well for you and for me! I'm glad you're here and I care about you even if I don't know you like that!
sometimes our dreams come true, sometimes our fears do too.
i love you pheo, my angel :)
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@finnexistsig Aw... someone else told me once about feeling like they're always the last choice for things. People's lives are so big and busy, it's hard to be first in someone's world. But you're really tough to want to suck it up, though. A small part of us unfortunately has to know what it's like not being #1. I, even, have a hard time accepting being last. But, of course, you shouldn't always be last. So I get feeling frustrated. I'd love to talk if you wanted actually : o Sometimes being #1 in a conversation is something don't realize we need.
