Everything's alright - Conscience (TRIGGER WARNING)

[A Former User]

Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on
Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on
Look into the mirror and I don’t know what to do
Momma tellin’ me, “Come here” to show me what’s on the news
A kid of nine years was hiding away the truth
From their parents and their peers that he was bullied at school
They found him in his room hanging up from the ceilin’
Momma told me, “Rodger, you better tell me just how you feelin’”
I laughed, “Momma, you don’t have to worry 'bout a thang”
Gave a kiss, called my bus, and I cried along the way
I was getting picked on in the lunch line
All my friends ate, and I ain’t never touched mine
While my girls fuckin’ ‘round with another guy
Dark thoughts started weighing on my young mind
But I ain’t never been the type to go and unwind
So if you ask, my reply is just, “I’m fine”
Until I get home my mind doesn’t comply
I just lie in my bed and just lie in my head
Everything’s alright
No sleepin’, it replays all night
No eatin’, only take small bites
No speakin’, keep my jaw locked tight
Momma askin’, “Everything alright?”
I smile, “Everything’s alright”
“I promise everything’s alright, everything’s alright”
Yeah
Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on
Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on
I’ve tried and I’ve tried, I don’t think I can do it
Only thing by my side is my momma and music
And I know that she gon’ cry, maybe never get through it
But I don’t wanna be alive and death is telling me, “Prove it”
Bullies telling me, “Do it”, teachers think that I’m stupid
My nightmares turn to dreams and get more lucid and lucid
Feel like a waste of a human, my friends find it amusing
So I just hope they get a laugh at what I’m ‘bout to go through with
Open the drawer and find a boxcutter
And slide it down my wrist and let the blood run and spill off the sides
I scream and I cry ‘cause yes, it hurts to die
But I can slowly feel the pain make its way out my mind
I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough for you guys
Wasn’t strong enough to fight the pain so I’m saying goodbye
As my life subsides, I close my eyes
And just lie in my bed, and just lie in my head
Everything’s alright
No sleepin’, it replays all night
No eatin’, only take small bites
No speakin’, keep my jaw locked tight
Momma askin’, “Everything alright?”
I smile, “Everything’s alright”
“I promise everything’s alright, everything’s alright”
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s alright
Everything’s alright, everything’s al-
Everything’s alright
Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on
Lie next to me, baby
Don’t call for days
Days just go on

We’ve all been there. Every day people struggle. I am one of those people. I love y’all though. And I hope everyone knows that. I just wanted to announce to everyone that it will get better. I want y’all to come talk to me if you’re struggling mentally. There is help and if you don’t trust anyone you can trust me. Anything said will be kept between us. But y’all are loved. Every single one of y’all. It will get better. I don’t know how and I don’t know when. But I promise to everyone of y’all. That if you stay strong it will get better. Come talk to me about your mental issues and I will get back to y’all as soon as I can. It’s an issue here that I don’t want to continue. I personally have lost people in my life to suicide. I am here for y’all. I will support y’all in ANY way I can ❤️