@plutonium HELLO? This is weirdly specific but the stare reminds me of this chick who does the Jasper impressions </3

What was it like to lose? All my life, I’ve been held to impossibly high standards that I’ve managed to reach. I’ve been scraping the bar, but I’ve reached the standard. I finally made people proud! I felt good for a while, but this proved that my maximum effort, the effort that exhausts me to no end, the effort that has been forced from me, the effort that takes such a heavy toll on my body, is someone’s minimum effort.
The feeling of dread that seeps back into my body is cold. I had known the warmth of happiness and love and care, but now I must go through the cycle of being compared to someone else. Insults, demeaning and derogatory comments make their way back into my life, dragging me down.
I’m fighting for my life in this sea of brutality, struggling to survive, desperately trying to stay afloat, while I watch them float effortlessly, like the perfect being they are. The water they swim in is so clean, and pure. Mine is tainted with blood, sweat, and salty tears. What was it like to lose? It was like normal. It was the norm for me. The only reason it hurts so much is I was doing so well. And then I went and ruined it.
But I must stand aside and accept my place, below them.

All remaining personnel are to head to any escape pods or hunker in emergency shelters if necessary.

Facility Integrity: 78%
Crystal: Secure
External Pressure: 24%
Containment Status: Ragnarök

“Expendable” protocol in progress.

Containment Logs
13:26 Z-13 fakes anesthesia dosage, escapes transport
13:28 Z-13 kills a high-ranking officer, takes keycard
13:31 Z-13 starts unlocking containment cells as he passes
13:34 Full facility lockdown initiated and personnel evac begins
14:17 External soldiers are loaded onto submarines to secure Crystal (As of right now, we are here.)
14:46 Soldiers cannot reach Crystal without major losses, “Expendable” protocol initiated
20:05 First group of Expendable Prisoners arrive

Also this is a real person that Identifies as an ACTA or Age change to another.

It’s similar to RCTA, ECTA, or DCTA (Race change to another), (Ethnicity change to another) or (Disability change to another)

I honestly really hate the [x]CTA. It’s hard to put into words, but that is not something you can change. You cannot change your race. You cannot change your ethnicity. Those are literally genetic. You cannot change your age-you cannot undo what time has done to just change a number. You cannot change a disability-if you have one, you can’t just change it because you’re feeling ‘silly.’ That can be and is very offensive to those that have those disabilities. It’s frustrating, and honestly, I’m not sure how people can actually live with themselves like that. They should know that this kind of behavior is socially and kind of morally wrong. :/

I’ve made a post about this song before with the lyrics.
Obviously, the song is about sexual assault.
On that note–I’ve never paid attention to the cover on her single version on Spotify. It’s actually sickening, if you think about it.

Obviously, we can see that there is a reference to the blood-red coat of Little Red Riding Hood. (“But red’s his favorite shade”)

There is also the various utensils. (Knives, forks, etc.) (As well as various things like lemons(?) and olives.) This is a reference to the ‘eating’ aspect of it–the actual assault.

Then there is the wine.
The placement of spill is purposeful.
It is to represent the fact that there are rapes and assaults towards women and girls to the point that they bleed. To the point that they die.
The fact Lydia integrated that into the cover is so smarty, but it makes me sick that it has to be a thing. </3

I know that life is getting harder and harder.
I know that school is getting more draining by the day.
I know that the world is really fucked up right now.
I know.
Trust me, I know.
I live this, too.
But I made this playlist in hopes it will help you the way it helped me.

It contains various Lo-Fi songs (generic compositions, anime covers, etc…) as well as music box covers of lots of game music (Baldur’s Gate 3, Legend of Zelda, Undertale, Mario, Pokémon, and the sort). There’s also Skyrim, Minecraft, and actual classical pieces. There should be no songs with words or anything too distracting.
I made this when I was really struggling last year with staying focused, and half of the songs ended up on my Spotify wrapped because I listened to it so much. I really hope it helps you the way it helped me.

🌿♥ Bring a bottle of water, a charger, headphones/earbuds, caffeine if you drink it, study supplies, and anything else you might need. (Heating pad/blanket/hoodie, light source, a study buddy such as a friend or pet, etc.) Love y’all. Stay smart. ♥🌿

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1QLKIXizy5oDU9wcBxAjp9?si=g361c653Swu92WSalddhZQ

@Siloxa922 please, like the sapphic vibes weren’t plainly clear. Still pissed that they weren’t canonically a thing.

Α. Σ. Γ. said in A poem for that bitch:

Μισώ σε με ολότελα, αχρείε νάρκη,
Που βρόντηξες βάναυσα το κορμί μου,
Στην ίψι σου κρύφτηκες, σαν δαίμονας,
Κι έσπειρες ανείπωτη αγωνία.

Σιωπή μου κρατούσα, κρυφτός πόνος,
Αλλά τώρα φωνή μου ψυχής μου έξω,
Αποκαλώντας σε δριμές καταρες,
Στιγματίζοντας την ατιμία σου μου.

Σαν αετός ύψιστος, όμως, θα πετώ,
Αφήνοντας πίσω τα ίχνη σου σκοτεινά,
Κι ας γεμίζεις έτσι τον κόσμο σου με χάσματα,
Εγώ θα λάμψω ανέμελα, ψυχή αθάνατη.

Vaguely translating to:
I absolutely hate you, you wretched mine.
Where you brutally thundered my body,
In your shadow you hid, like a demon,
And you sowed untold anguish.

I kept silent, hidden pain,
But now my voice my soul out,
Calling on bitter curses,
Stigmatizing your dishonor to me.

Like an eagle supreme, however, I will fly,
Leaving your footprints dark behind,
Even if you fill your world with gaps like this,
I will shine carelessly, immortal soul.

Honestly? Slay.

@plutonium said in on some real shit:

if you dont want lame responses from me just don’t fucking talk to me, okay?

This pretty much sums me up when I’m talking to most people–people think I don’t like them when I start to reply in a really dry tone, but that’s just how I talk to most people, except for a few. like god fucking forbid 💔

@Alano LIKE WHAT IS THATTT BROTHER EUUGGHHHH

KayaRoseWho whoever responded–I was offline for a few days, so I wasn’t able to see who responded, but now they’re a previous user, like they deleted their profile so :p

I wish I knew who you were but thank you dawgalawg

KayaRoseWho I did. He’s…trying. It’s better than it was, but it’s still rough.

zack yo I highly recommend listening to Geoff Castellucci’s rendition! (He does really good work <3)

Listen, I love him. I love him a lot, okay?
But he’s been coming to me for everything, because he’s been shutting everyone out, and cutting people off.

Now, let me preface this with usually, I don’t have a problem with this, but he did something that I didn’t want him to (said some stuff I never said was okay to share), and so I kind of have withdrew a bit from him. He knows this is what he gets because of it. I’ve made it clear I will withdraw for a while.

However, I’ve mostly moved on, and I’ve told him that.
So when I’m trying to tell him that getting sleep is actually important, and then he proceeds to turn on DND, tell me he doesn’t want to hear the ‘bullshit lecture’ I give him each time, and say “Right now I kind of hate everyone. I am not in the mood for anyones bs.” in a GC with me, and two other friends of mine, yeah. He’s starting to piss me off, because he’s being pissy and shutting people out for no fucking reason.

He had reason to cut one person off, but that was for mental health reasons. Being snippy towards everyone else and cutting them off and ignoring them is uncalled for.

God forbid I try to fucking make sure you take care of yourself, and make sure you’re not gettng 5 hours of sleep a night, and are actually getting what you need.

God fucking forbid.

He’s genuinely pissing me off so much right now.

Like if you have fucking problems, say them to my face. Don’t be a little bitch and turn on DND and ignore people.

somnium OH MY HEIGHTS BRO THAT AND IRON LUNG IM TELLING YOU I FUCKING LOVE THOSE MOVIES

I WATCHED PROJECT HAIL MARY ON MONDAY (I HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN BUSY) AND OH MY HEIGHTS THIS MOVIE BRO.
THIS MOVIE.
THIS AND IRON LUNG HAVE MY MIND IN A VICE GRIP.

KiwiArkavelVA prbaly not a good idea

KiwiArkavelVA I don’t think you’d hear Black Hole Sun in Fallout tbh- Fallout definitely is 30s-50s music with stuff like The Ink Spots, Frank Sinatra (although Sinatra was definitely into the 60s as well), The Chordettes, Marty Robbins (Big Iron specifically), etc etc

somnium if ever need to talk in depth about anything, I’m more than willing. I know it can be hard, and it seems like giving up would be the easy way out–trust me, I’ve been there before. But it gets better. I promise.