h4lfie (yes i did realise i made a goodbye post before this and now i feel stupid for making this… but we dont talk about that shush shh shh hush quiet)
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RE: think i might be quitting from this forum once and for all.posted in User Announcements
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RE: Heyaposted in Advice
Shazz_ we all love you here, man, no matter what. i’m very sorry you feel this way, i get the feeling. i hope you feel better. just know none of us dislike you at all.
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think i might be quitting from this forum once and for all.posted in User Announcements
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honestly, its a hard decision, but i haven’t used this forum for much more than saying “hello!” every once in a while. thank you all for being there for me through the years. i have a job now, lol, so i gotta tend to that now, giving me even less time to do anything with. last thing i gotta say is that i love yall more than anything. good run, goodbye!
(i’ll probably end up popping in within the next 6 months to a year honestly, but what i mean by quitting is that i’ll be posting a LOT LOT LOT less than I ever did.)
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Heyaposted in Advice
Maybe this won’t be helpful if I decide to talk about this on this forum, or maybe it might be (I’ve known many of you for years) but I’ve been needing some reassurance because maybe I’ve been the one doing wrong
I guess I’ve just been, wanting to be personally loved and appreciated by a person I could call my girlfriend, but I’ve been through so many people it’s probably embarrassing and, I hate myself for it. The counter’s stopped at 6, at least of what I can remember. Each experience felt really nice, knowing that maybe this person was the one for me but as every one of those experiences went, it proved to be really heavy on me and light on them. I don’t think I’ve ever treated anyone badly or intentionally hurt, but a trend I’ve come to realize is just what pettiness can do in a relationship. I was cheated on twice, lied to, hurt because I in my honest heart didn’t know something my significant other may have taken it as. And those feelings when you’ve felt hopeless and betrayed really affected me the most. I get so hypertensive I wish I could just reverse time.
I think I also overkill a lot of what I have done as a sign of my appreciation towards those people I wanted to love; some of you may know that I write my own music, and I often create pieces for a lot of them. I probably do so much that it’s considered a risk to continue.
I try really hard to find the peace whenever it is possible in a relationship, but the sad result has always been something that could’ve practically been prevented, and understanding their emotions in those situations is honestly my specialty, as long as they know I want to be genuine in helping them as their boyfriend.I just rarely open up about this, some of you lovely people might expect someone like me to be perfect but I have my flaws, and I have wishes to be personally known and loved, understood and embraced. I’ve had some acute depression over these years, also due to family, demands and events, but especially just, thinking about loneliness. I guess that’s my fear because I always want to invite someone into my happiness and to share it with me. But it’s been very silent for me, emotionally.
Thanks for listening ❤️🩹
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Wowzersposted in Blog
1.5 million views on a forum post is crazy! I never knew this got this many over the years
Also heyaa everyone! How’s it going <3 -
RE: son?? 😭posted in Boredom
@ghøstfacejxdi oh yeah, this is like a glitch or wtv that we get sometimes- it’s pretty quiet most days anymore.
