Its my birthday <3
I'm finally 14 :D
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LOCALIS LESBIANUS
I make quotes :D
"Snitches get no bitches" -T-Pod or Bheese 2022
The internet sucks, honestly don't know what you expected.
There are only two genders, Pain and Suffering.
Ur, mad? Lmao, stfu and go cry.
Hatsune Miku Kin <3
Chiaki Nanami Kin <3
Mikan Tsumiki Kin <3
Friends are like boobs. Some are real some are fake. And some are squishy.
𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙩 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙗𝙚 𝙣𝙞𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙂𝙀𝙏 𝙊𝙑𝙀𝙍 𝙔𝙊𝙐𝙍𝙎𝙀𝙇𝙁.
Darling, you'll never be anyone to me, you'll always be someone to me.
Grades are temporary, but Mommy Issues are forever!
Don't vent without perm or it's a block ty <3
I'm a worried mother
If I act happy all the time maybe others will have the joy they we're supposed to have in their lives too?
I have anger issues and I hold grudges for a while.
When I leave make sure to remember me okay?
I will speak my mind when needed and honestly, it might not be very kind.
I have children, I will set the whole world on fire for them <3
I try to be a nice person, though sometimes I let my anger control me, I'm sorry [Unless ur a crappy person.] if I've hurt you from that.
I love my online family more than my irl ones. <3
You may be as different as the sun and the moon, but the same blood flows through your hearts. You need her, as she needs you.
George R.R. Martin.
I love my family <3
In loving memory, Carina, you'll forever be missed.
I miss you Tripod.
Snakes typically hang in pairs- CaptainPresto
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I love you guys sm and I hope you all have amazing lives [Even if we argued or hate each other].
𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐞
@finneass
@Shade
Cakey
@Flandre-Scarlet
@A38
𝓑𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓲𝓽
Tripod
Inkfell Spamton G. Green Juice Sans
@Duchess
@CaptainPresto
Sen [Ik people don't like them but me and Sen had a lot good moments together that I'll never forget.]
Jun
@Emory1008
@Evelyn_Is_Not_Here [Hoping I got the right one]
Shazz_
]- Jinx "Snortable" Powder -[
YourLocalSansFangirl
cyber spacenether
Cyx
JAP
@Wubbrle-the-Wubble
I found out that parents pay people to. .Kidnap their children and take them to an elite school in the middle of the night?
Why would you do that?? You couldn't have just. .Waited a couple of hours, and then took your kid to this so-called "Elite School"??
My mental health went downhill and I ended up in the hospital. I'm okay now, my computer was also broken, got it fixed recently so now I'm back.
Sorry for the abrupt and constant leaves-
I'm okay now, I hope everyone else is doing okay as well :]
I typically don't vent, mainly cause I feel terrible when I do but I genuinely can't hold this in anymore.
TW: Drug use.
There was one point in my life that it had gotten so incredibly low that instead of talking to someone, I went down a dark path, drugs. I had used drugs whenever I felt upset or anytime I needed to get rid of the hurt and trauma I had. I ended up becoming dependent on it for about 3 years before I was admitted to rehab because my mom had found some drugs.
I'm now currently off drugs and I've only relapsed once in 2022-2023 which is the main reason why I was gone for so long.
TW: Mentions of ED
I have body dysmorphia, I can barely look in the mirror without feeling bad about how I look. My mother doesn't make it any better considering she's the one who makes it so bad. I may look confident, but in reality, I'm not, that's just a front so people don't see how pathetic I am.
One day, my mom made a comment about how much I ate. This is what really triggered my ED and BD. My sister laughed along with her. I laughed along too but in reality, I wanted just to cry right there.
I ended up starving myself to the point I could see my ribcage. I look more healthy now but, I can barely eat and am still working on it.
TW: Mentions of SA
On January 6th, I was sexually assaulted in a restroom by a teenage boy.
But, apparently, it was my fault, I had invited him in by my clothing. I told my mom about it and she told me I deserved it. Saying I was a wh*re and a sl*t and more insults. She continued to humiliate me until we got home.
Aftermath:
I dunno. .I feel like I can be as good as she wants me to be if I just pretend for her and just fucking try harder but. .I’m drained and I just wanna relapse back to drugs but I can’t cause I fucking promised I wouldn’t after Rehab. .I just. .I dunno what to do.
It’s silly really. I should just be better and I’m not. What did I do to deserve this? I’m sorry I’m pathetic.
Edit:
I'm at a point in my life where a lot of people have shown their true colors too me and that everything we had was fake considering she chose me over a shitty dude who ended up feeding her lies about me and some of my other friends. This ended whatever I had with the other group of "Friends" because some people can't admit what petty things they've done.
Two of my friends we're kicked because some people we're "uncomfortable" with them, which in actual reality, they just wanted to finally get rid of me and some others who had a backbone. I asked a simple question of why they we're kicked which btw, I never even said who the question was towards, I just took a ss of the logs and showed them what I was talking about. They assumed I had a problem and instantly attacked me. This went on for a while, about maybe 1-2 hours.
Repeadetly, they'd come into the server and insult us. It finally stopped when the owner and one other person [The owner needed someone to suck her dick while she lies not only on my name but multiple others considering she's a coward.] in this situation had a sit down with one of my friends who had left said server months ago.
Just now I contacted one of the people who I was arguing with who had sent me a message hours ago but because I had been upset I sent a petty message since they had sent me a message saying "Womp womp womp" <--- Something I said a lot to only ONE person as a greeting.
Attacker A:
Sorry olive [I went by this name]
but the amount of people uncomfortable with them and you, the statuses about someone else’s relationship, as well as how kota, luan [Bringing up OLD drama from 2023]
, etc used to say Kys everyday to someone in another server for making a harmless joke [Which was a lie considering they had already explained and everyone was fine with it, Attacker A just wasn't on good terms with them atm.]
, the amount of bullshit, talking about me and other behind out back [Something they did as well but I actually had the balls to say it too said persons face and admit it.]
, etc, that’s a few reasons why your not in the server. Its also rosies server, she doesn’t need a reason to remove someone as well, remember who the owner is and stop pretending you are superior to everyone, maybe we would have left you guys stay if yall cleaned up your act. 💛
My first response:
I’m not reading allat [I read it]
My response hours later:
Also, I don’t need to act like I’m “Superior to everyone” because I know I’m not. Y’all already know I have an attitude 24/7 [I already explained to them prior when all of us first became friends that I was quite a rude person with an aggressive way of typing but to not take it seriously unless in an argument]
. I never was specifically asking Rosie why she kicked them, I was asking IN GENERAL, maybe instead of assuming I had a problem y’all at least could’ve let me explain why I was even asking without immediately attacking me. Ik I was an asshole and yes, I do need to clean up my act with how I speak to people, but at least I can admit I’ve talked about people [Not saying you did, considering you weren’t one to talk about people]. But about the whole kys jokes, you need to speak to Luan and Kota about that considering that’s not really relevant to what happened [Quite literally, ts happened at the end of summer, early school year.]
. But at least you were the most mature one and didn’t attack me. [<--- You instead sent TWO of your friends where one attacked me in my dms without even knowing what was going on. While you and you're two friends joined the server and attacked us like the dickriders they are.]
But genuinely, if y’all wanna come and speak to me and some of the others, WITHOUT bringing in other people who weren’t even in the argument then you can.
And again, the whole thing about the “kys” statements were genuinely just jokes, they weren’t meant to harm anyone. [<--- Mind you, one of the people she's friends with had talked shit about her AND said kys jokes as well. But yk, YLL bad because she doesn't lie like y'all do.]
I'll update when I have a reply, this whole thing truly showed me why I even have a fear of venting, abandonment, trust issues, etc. Honestly, after this and many other incidents with 3 other people, I probably won't trust or get attached to someone after this ever again.
And you wonder why your kid resents you and now has life-long trauma starting at the age of about 7 years old.
Have fun in jail and probably also a retirement home.
[Please take this serious, this is worth like. .200 points. .]
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I didn't think I needed to make a topic on this considering that the majority of you are in HS, Middle, etc. But here I am.
If y'all are gonna ask for something whether it be on MPPC or MPP, add a "please", or at least be nice about it. Staff here and staff on MPP don't get paid for helping you and other people out.
If you're going to ask for help or just asking about said thing in general, don't be demanding or bitchy, be kind about it.
We don't get paid to help you, but we take time out of our day to be here cause we care for y'all.
Erm- I got into a fight two days ago. .It was a tie but people think I lost. .???
The fight wasn't even fair. .I was on the ground while she was on a STAGE.
Cannot stand people who do shit too you [She threw bread and fries at me and I confronted her and multiple others.] and then when people dick-ride them, they think they're some tough shit.
All I gotta say, I only lost an earing and my hair was slightly messy [My swoop was unpinned when she grabbed it], while hers is all scratched and bruised :Shrug:
You're Iron is prolly low. .Or you just like ice cubes.
I dunno tbh. .I think I only stay cause I still like most of the people here and this is a half-safe space for me.
[Pomni:]
Um. . . hi. . . uh, I’m sorry, where am I? I-I just, I don’t know who any of you are and I. . .
[Jax:]
You’re in your new home
[Pomni:]
What?
[Ragatha:]
Jax, be nicer!
[Pomni:]
What the hell is going on?
What am I wearing?
Something’s gone terribly wrong
And they’re all staring
One second I was me
And now I’m this strange plaything
Lights are fading, thoughts evading
Get me outta here!
[Ragatha and Kinger, {Jax}]
Come join our circus welcome party
{God, she looks terrified}
Don’t you be nervous, we haven’t started
{Won’t even last the night}
[Pomni:]
I’m not a jester, nothing against ya
But I think I’ll lеave this hellscape
[Jax:]
Go on and try, you’rе here for your life
But don’t let me stop your escape
[Ragatha:]
Don’t be so cruel!
She just got here and is confused is all. . .
[Kinger:]
That’s right! Cause up is down!
And left is right and big is small!
[Pomni, {Jax}]
All due respect: I don’t know you
And I swear I saw the way out
So I think I’ll go, good luck with your show
I’m gonna take my leave now
I’m so damn sure I saw a door somewhere back there
{Not another one. . .}
I’ll just keep looking, swear I saw it
I just don’t know where. .!
[C&A]
{There’s no way out}
Please be sure to read the fine print in your contract!
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
C&A will not be liable for any physical, mental, or emotional damages.
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
Have fun!
There’s no way. . .
[All:]
Join us at the A.I. circus!
Brains are breaking, system nervous
Start the show and do your service
Shackled to the big top
Let’s have some fun, it’s non-stop
Calm your senses, don’t you break down
Play the part you cute little clown!
Stray too far and you won’t be found
This is for your own good
Message received? Understood.
[Caine:]
Well, look at this, a brand new kid!
So nice to see ya!
The circus is your home-from-home
And you’re the feature!
A shining star rises up to join our roster!
So let us know: what’s your name, kid?
[Pomni:]
I-I forgot. . . [gasp]
[Ragatha and Kinger, {Jax}]
Come join our circus welcome party!
{God, she looks terrified}
Don’t you be nervous, we haven’t started
{Won’t even last the night}
[Pomni:]
Door after door after door after door
After door after door after door!
[Ragatha:]
You really need to calm it down. .
Maybe just be a cute little clown?
[Pomni:]
I just wanna go home!
None of this is real!
None of you are real!
[Jax:]
She’s losing it!
[Pomni:]
Shut the hell up!
[C&A]
{There’s no way out}
Please be sure to read the fine print in your contract!
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
C&A will not be liable for any physical, mental, or emotional damages.
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
{There’s no way out}
Have fun!
There’s no way. . .
[All]
Join us at the A.I. circus!
Brains are breaking, system nervous
Start the show and do your service
Shackled to the big top
Let’s have some fun, it’s non-stop
Calm your senses, don’t you break down
Play the part you cute little clown!
Stray too far and you won’t be found
This is for your own good
Message received? Understood.
[Pomni:]
I. . . I just don’t know where I am. . . and I don’t know who I am. . . and I. . . I’d just really like to go home now. . . I said I’d like to go home now!
I’m so sorry that you’re seeing me this way
I promise you I’m never like this
The blind hysteria was never on my face
I’d never shed a tear so violent
Hey, oh, I’m totally fine
I wasn’t cryin’, I wasn’t crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
I swear I’m tryin’, I swear I’m trying!
Fake apologies are rain on a cloudless day
And I don’t think I’ve ever seen a sky so clear
‘Cause I’m miserable, you think that you have to stay
But you don’t have to
No, you don’t have to
Hey, oh, I’m totally fine
I wasn’t cryin’, I wasn’t crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
I swear I’m tryin’, I swear I’m trying!
So, what if I sat with you
And told you what I’ve been going through?
This feeling is way too new
Would you listen to me? Listen to
Or would you watch my words as they leave my lips
And tell me how you’re sorry for me?
As if you ever even cared
Do you want things to be like this forever?
You’re doing this to yourself
‘Cause I don’t think you’re trying hard enough
You’re not trying hard enough!
Hey, oh, I’m totally fine
I wasn’t cryin’, I wasn’t crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
But now you’re tryin’, oh, now you’re trying!
[Lyric:]
[I haven't seen this one yet; Visual:]
Oh my God, why are you sad again?
Take a dose of something to forget
Walk a mile in my shoes
And if you don’t come back
At least i’ve got nothing to lose
Hello, can I help you?
I don’t think I’ve ever seen you before
Did you think that I should listen to you?
I’m about to kick your ass through the door
Carry me further in regret
I tried to leave but regret’s got quite the death grip
The meds aren’t working for me anymore
I think I’m spiraling, I’m spiraling downwards
Hello, can I help you?
I don’t think I’ve ever seen you before
Did you think that I should listen to you?
I’m about to kick your ass through the door
Hello, can I help you?
I don’t think I’ve ever seen you before
Did you think that I should listen to you?
I’m about to kick your ass through the door
Carry me further in regret
I tried to leave but regret’s got quite the death grip
The meds aren’t working for me anymore
I think I’m spiraling, I’m spiraling downwards
I’ve always wanted you
Inside my head
To dance around my bones and make me a mess
I’m begging you to rip me to shreds
I’ve looked and longed and craved and starved my whole life
To death
Can’t find my
Can’t find my
Can’t find my light
Help me, the storm is coming soon
It’s dark as night mid-afternoon
I hear the whispers in the dunes
Promise they’ll be here very soon
[Live vers:]