(poem I wrote a while ago)

[A Former User]

Everything that was bad filled my head
I looked at my pages of what you all said
My body trembled before it went limp, I felt dead
Nah I felt great, I felt chill I felt calm
I’m not gonna go crying to my fucking mom
Y’all would like that I know cause you love that what you said
Made me scared, made me cry, made me feel dead
I can’t associate myself with another fuckin person
Everyone seems to treat me fuckin absurd and
I’m tired of feelin like another fuckin burden
I can feel it, my blood inside burnin
I don’t wanna get hurt again, I’m startin again, close these curtains the light hurts and I’m tired of lookin
I wanna fuckin collapse, everything you say makes me wanna relapse, a habit of misery perhaps, sorry I’m not better at making choices