I'm having a genuine mental conundrum.

[A Former User]

I’ve been thinking a lot today about this particular topic and its nothing to be too worried about, it just crosses my mind every now and then.

And it’s simply the question of “Why am I still here?”. I don’t mean life in general, I have no problems grasping my purpose. I am talking specifically about this community. Why do I continue to be in a place such as this, where even surrounded by dozens of community members, I feel separated and slightly alone.

I know why I stay, mainly boredom and I enjoy being a help to the staff team. I’ve been a part of this community for longer than some of you have been alive, which baffles me. I can leave any time I want to, but yet I feel almost obligated to be a part of this website’s staff team.

I have posted before about my mental health and my sudden bouts with feelings of loneliness and emptiness, but this raises a genuine question for the future, how long am I willing to stay and be a part of this community in which I do not fit in very well?

I’ll be able more to answer this question as the future goes on, likely when I have children of my own. But for now, I am stuck feeling welcome into a place I don’t belong in.

Sorry for the deep talk, felt like I needed to let that out.

[A Former User]

@CaptainPresto I understand you feel kind of like you have to be here, but your place in this community pins you with no obligation to stay. I do think you help, but you leaving will not make us fall apart. You’ll leave as a legend, and Im sure you can always visit whenever you need. I admit I stay in this community because it is the main part of my life, but I know you have other things in life that you hold to a higher level such as your job and wife. I dont know if this place really stresses you out or anything, but if it does get annoying to deal with the teen drama from around the country/world, you really dont have to. Unless you kind of lowkey enjoy it here lol