people ruin everything (don't read if you don't have the patience. do not respond if you have nothing relevant to say. don't read if you don't want to read something depressing.)
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just putting it out there but there’s nothing I like in life and it’s because of the people around me who make everything so miserable
game I like? nope, everybody has to purposefully ruin everything
you really can’t have anything on this god-forsaken planet -
just wanted to play a game I like but when it started getting popular, in came the people who have such little going on in their lives they need to make every server unbearable
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just wanted to have a good day, but no, had a bad one
got home only for my dad to harass me and lecture me on life on things I already know, telling me weird depressive shit that nobody asked for, it’s really like he wants me to hate everything and have a negative, pessimistic view on anything
I really try not to make a lot of posts where I just complain about everything ever but I rarely have good events or happy days, this is really all I can post about at the end of the day because it was just full of displeasure and shitty people who go out of their way to make life suck and wonder why it does
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and there’s so many more things going on in my life to complain about that I either can’t or choose not to because talking about it makes me feel like I’m making the people around me uncomfortable
when it’s the unpleasant things I talk about, other human beings are the root of the problem or my own biology working against me to make living either hard or unbearable
but when I talk about pleasant things it’s occasionally one person doing or saying something nice to me, and other than that it’s just “I gained a thing I wanted” or “I went to a place” -
worst thing is, I can’t talk to people about the things I complain about, this is really the only place I can complain about things without facing harsh open judgement
I just like to get things off my chest, I don’t need anybody to make any kind of response, I just like to say things without someone making me feel like I did something wrong over it
I come here to talk with people
I don’t come here to have a bad day and have arguments
I just want to have people I can talk to about life, to share things withThis is because I have no friends to share this with; I do have friends, but I don’t ever end up knowing any of my real life ones long enough for us to be close enough for me to talk to them about these kinds of things without it being weird
I mean, how would you feel if this person you barely knew came up and started dumping this shit on you?I can hardly talk to my family about this stuff, everything just gets really awkward, you know? I have trouble speaking, too, much more trouble than I do typing, so nothing ever comes out the way I want it to and it makes me feel like I’ve said something that comes across as, well, stupid. And in my family, everybody talks about everything regarding me. I can say something to my cousin and all of a sudden everybody knows because he told his mom who told my dad and his dad who told everybody on that side of the family, and my dad who’d tell everybody on my mom’s side of the family so wherever I go someone’s trying to have a conversation with me that I don’t want to have with them
Then there’s my cousin, the only person I really can talk to about anything, but he’s so obsessed with his devices just like I am that whenever I talk to him he tunes out whatever I’m saying and just responds with “cool” even though I obviously asked him a question, and when I find something funny I want to show him he gets visibly irritated and responds to me saying “I just want to go back to my video;” he never manages to respond to me politely even though I’m only ever so friendly with him
I can see that look in his eyes that basically says “holy shit shut up and leave me alone” and I know it because every time someone else starts yapping to me and wont shut up, I lose my patience because I’m “too busy playing a game or trying to watch a video” and I’m ashamed because I feel negatively when people treat me that way even though I treat everybody else that wayGetting off-topic here
The point is this is really the only place I can go to, to talk about whatever’s bothering me -
My dad urges me to talk to him about things but when I do he brushes it off, often only ever makes me feel like I’m stupid for feeling a certain way or talking a certain way, often calling me stupid, an idiot, dumb, or the r-word
He says he doesn’t mean it, but he shouldn’t be calling his child mean names that he knows might hurt them. You are the parent, the child usually goes off of whatever the parent tells them. He tells me to let him know if he’s bothering me and he’ll leave me alone, but he never does, he just keeps going on and on, continues trying to piss me off but also continues calling me names and asking me why I’m being “such an asshole” when it’s apparent he’s the root of the problem and he never learns from the conversations I have with him because if he did I wouldn’t have anything else to complain about, really -
And I really don’t enjoy much in life, so having such little variety might mean to you, the less things there are to be ruined by people
But the things I like are things that people ruin so easily
Online games, there’s always someone to try to make your day worse
You like a series? Don’t worry, the fandom is here to either spoil everything because you accidentally encountered it, or it’s so wide-known cringe that you’re scared to be a fan of it anymore because when you say you like it someone just has to go, “ew, you’re one of those?” when all you really want is to enjoy a good series or, hell, even just a game -
Anyways it’s nearly 1 in the morning and I’m tired, I’ve had a bad day and I’d rather look forward to the next one rather than the bad ones
Of course I’ll be replying to this again whenever I have another thing to complain about that have people at the root of the problem, and they always are
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I just read this for 20 mins and I have to agree with you SOOO much actually
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honestly though, humans are the worst fucking species, we collectively suck and i honestly cant stand how we (even myself) act sometimes. we all act like a bunch of petty babies most of the time