Lost Hope. (Trigger warning: Mentions of suicide )
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This is a problem that I have had for a long time. I’ve lost hope in everything. I just don’t care about anything. I’m not depressed. I’m not suicidal, I won’t ever commit suicide, but I keep imagining myself commiting it. I don’t even want to do it, but maybe that’s because of self-hatred and that I too, just have nothing to offer to anyone. I just don’t see any value in anything, because at the end of the day, in my mind, nothing matters. I’ve done nothing. I haven’t made history, I haven’t had positive influence on anything or anyone. Just nothing. I don’t see the point in life, nor the point in anything anyone does. Yes, I also have a very negative view on humanity. It’s backwards for the most part. Alot of people priorities self-interest over the interest of everyone, society doesn’t take serious things serious. I just don’t like humanity that much. Of course, I know. I should enjoy life, make the most out of it, focus on the positive, admire the extraordinary things accomplished by humans, but I really just can’t. Sometimes I just wished there was a huge wipeout where horrible humans go away. I don’t know if I’m nihilistic or if I have issues, but either way, I just really don’t have that many positive thoughts. I know this sounds concerning, but I just really wanted this to get out of my system.
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@The4thFemC If you ever want to talk about something, my DMs are open. <3 We care about you, buddy.
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Femc’s gone, but I know that this may help them if they ever decide to come back someday.
I’ve felt this way too, and it lasted for a long long time. I know the answer to the problem, though, and it isn’t waiting for things to get better.
I forced myself into an environment which was originally impossible for someone like me to be in. For others it may be extreme sports, or maybe just a dangerous job. I went to a school that saw a lot of racism and bullying, and I realized just how much of a good person I really am.
They say the deep end is when you’re at your lowest, and you can’t really come out from there. Push yourself into another, deeper part of the ocean by teaching yourself the most important aspects of being human. Taking risks, getting into fights, and trying new things.
It may seem impossible, but that’s because it’s supposed to look that way. The way out is hidden behind a spike-wall, which is definitely a glitch techs reference. Climb the spike wall to go somewhere you aren’t supposed to be, and learn just how nice it is to say ‘Fuck it, I have nothing else to lose’ because the true badasses don’t see themselves as badasses.<3
