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Umā¦ just life stuff, songs of the day and how I feel I guess, idk.
Entry 1: I feel sad. I forgot to take my medicine today and now I just feel depressed. I feel like I donāt make the person I care about the most happy. I reminisce about the past and think about all the terrible things in my life. I hate it. I think that everyone I know hates me, I think that all the bad things that have happened to me is my fault, and Iām scared that Iām going to fuck up my life even worse. Iām scared that Iām going to somehow mess up everything that makes me happy. I have no hope in my future as of right now. I know that I should get help, but Iām too scared to talk to anyone, I donāt want to tell others about my problems but I do it anyway and I feel like Iām a burden when I do that. But Iām fine and I will be fine. Everything will get better. Eventually.
Emotion: Depressed
Song of the day:
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girl-
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@Izzyyyyyyy yes?
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zofya406 Are u good?
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zofya406 I have faith in you š you will get through this
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@Izzyyyyyyy Iāll be fine, I just havenāt been taking my meds like Iām supposed to and menace got upset before he went to sleep which made me upset
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@Laws thank you
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zofya406 Absolutely. You got this. Imma include you in my prayers tonight
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@Laws
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zofya406 awwwwww
youāre saying you wanna eat me? -
@Laws NU youāre giving me kindness-
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zofya406 Awwww well, its what I do best. : )
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@Laws You act like a parent istg
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zofya406 āā¦and welcome back to ā15-yr-old teen dads,ā the show about people who are male, 15 years of age, and got into a real pickle with their shawtyā
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@Laws LMAO
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Entry 2: Great, rumors about my relationship are spreading. First someone said I was cheating, now this
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zofya406 Heyā¦ I definitely couldnāt hate you, Zofya. If it means anything. And I know that struggles always seem like your fault, but some people just get unlucky. Donāt feel that youāre messing up your life, and donāt be scared youāll mess up more. Life is bound to have mistakes in it, yknow? If life was perfect, how will we ever learn? Youād never know anything from experience. You donāt have to talk to anyone about your struggles, but, let me tell you. If you decide to reach out to someone, at least let me tell you that youāre not a burden. I know that doesnāt have any proof in the pudding, but. Trust me. Youāre not a burden. And, I appreciate you saying those last few lines. Even just reminding yourself that life will get better does more than you might realize : ) A little positive view is the little sliver of light that will eventually grow. ā„
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Entry 3: I went to school again today and it was boring, like usual. Other than musical rehearsals later tonight, I have nothing to do, so itās a boring day again. Also an update about my audition for the solo, I didnāt get the part I wanted but I got 2 solos! Iām still happy about it! Thatās all for right now
Emotion: Happy
Song of the day:
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zofya406 Congratulations! šš That is exciting : )
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Entry 4: A normal day like usual
Emotion: Bored
Song of the day: this has been stuck in my head today
