why am i fucking horrible to my friends.

[blackpearlscuddleslut]

bro i swear
im making everyone
mad
uncomfortable
just overall pissed off at me
snd yet i barely do anything
i dont even apologize
i just use the same fucking excuses

and i keep on victimizing myself
whenever soneone says something
i have the urge to say somethig that correlates to me
but then i contemplate because
its fucking selfish of me just to make everything about me

not to mentioned i easily replsce my friends
as soon as one gets off
i go to another one
then when they come back on
i go back to thrm and leave the person i WAS talking to

and im just annoying in general
i keep winding people up for entertainment
i dont know how to stop it
its just
i dont know
i just barely have any friends
friends that i dont piss off as reguarly as i do

im just gonna dump all of them
and when i want to restart
obviously i have my past actions
which makes thtem NOT want to be friends with me

im fucking done being friends
im fucking done of just pissing everyone off

thanks, i guess.