I love him. like- actually. i've said thank you to him so many times.

[whatswrongwith.me]

today we had my dance recital rehersal, and we were in the audience, watching the littles dance.
[i feel the need to note that before we were in the audience i was sitting in the corner of the room where we changed costumes and shoes, curled up in a ball. upset. nobody noticed, and they all went in without me.]
Everyone in my class was talking to each other and i sat like a space away because i felt left out. Two of my friends had just announced they wouldn’t be dancing next year because they were tired of my dance teacher’s bullshit. So i was upset. I was leaning forward in my seat, head buried in my arms as i ‘watched’ the little 3 year olds dance. I was actually js trying not to cry but my vision was blurring and i knew i was.
I looked back at the group, and made eye contact with this guy i’ll call mike. i looked back but a few seconds later i like looked back at him bc i knew he knew something was up. He moves over the friend [i’ll call her susan] that he was next to into the empty space next to me, and i like buried my face in my arms.
He asked me if i was okay, and i kinda just buried my face in my arms further, my eyes getting more teary.
“Do you want to go to the hall and talk about it?”
We did, and i went on to explain how i felt extremely left out and ignored. this other girl who i’ll call janessa never listened to me and always picked me up. if i said “I don’t consent” she’d say ‘well i do.’ and always pick me up bridal style and tip me bc she knew it would make me scared.
then we went back and i excused myself to the bathroom after Susan pulled mike out to talk in the room where we change our shoes.
I just stared at myself in the mirror for a few minutes before a little girl walked in and started talking with me. a few minutes later mike walked in [he later stated he came in to check on me, susan just followed him. pmo.] then SUSAN comes.

Later on Mike tells his friend and i get like sad again and she’s like ‘it’s okay you can talk to me’ and i start talking to her [i’ll call her sally] and i go to move out of the hallway bc my moms near and like- no and i find out that one of the other friends has said some crazy shit before and i like rant and what not then we have to go to like the hall for something

later me and mike to to find sally bc i never finished talking and we move up to the back of the audience to talk and then SUSAN comes along and butts in then literally moves sally away from me [prolly to talk shit about me or wtv] but like yeah [sally also told me she told one of the trustworthy friends moms about the susan thing but like that mom chill ik she aint telling nobody]

and in the hall when we were called out mike says he’s tired of being a girl and how he might be trans [im so supportive yipe1!! im kiddng] and im like ‘omggg dw i support’ and then he tells SUSAN and she sideeyes him and tells him she probably won’t support him if he does.
which pisses mike off because before susan said she would support him if he said he was trans.

Anyways i kinda stayed around mike the whole day and he kinda stayed around me like he was making sure i didnt feel ignored and i lowk love him for that like

[Blake]

|- ᴊᴏʀᴅᴀɴ -| YOU MADE A FRIEN YIPPI :33

[whatswrongwith.me]

Blake we’ve been friends for years cuh

[Blake]

|- ᴊᴏʀᴅᴀɴ -| .

I’m slow anc I just woke up from an after school nap