Videos like these on pinterest aren't my cup of tea. [rant]
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by NO means am i against tips on losing weight or anything, some of the workout tips are useful and cool. i’m just saying it’s kind of… projected an insecurity on me that i don’t even have.
Listen, i’m small, short, and skinny for my age. I am not chubby by any means. [this sounds weird, no hate on chubby people, they’re actually fucking gorgeous and perfect like hello please warm cuddle friends hug me] But i see so many of these unrealistically skinny women on my pinterest and youtube feed and start to feel like i’m not ACTUALLY thin. I look in the mirror and feel like my stomach is larger than before. It’s hard to explain without seeming like i want attention. It’s hard to explain without seeming like i’m faking it. I’m not. Even i think it’s foolish. I don’t tell anyone because it’s stupid. But at the same time, the number on the scale is going up a lot faster than it feels like it should. I’m beginning to wonder if i’m eating too much.All these ‘how to get pretty’ and ‘how to glow up before summer’ videos have been getting to me. The ‘aesthetic’ images of perfect lips and skin, the slimmest waist, probably grabbed off pinterest. I’m insecure of my nose and chin because of those ‘bad facial harmony’ videos. I spend hours in front of the mirror, squeezing and picking on my face because maybe if i get rid of all my blackheads, i’ll look like the people with clear skin who obviously lie for money and sponsors, and spend thousands on products.
I hate how since recently, it feels like you need to waste tons of money on products JUST to be ‘pretty.’
I think acne is gorgeous, i think that chubby people are perfect, and i think people who own stuffed animals and do tons of crafts are cool.
Yet i can’t help but think i’m a weirdo for having not perfect skin, or worry people will make fun of me because i make cringe lil bracelets n shit and carry around little acessorized stuffed animals. I see myself differently than everyone else, because people on the internet project insecurities on me because they’ll get more money off it.can anyone agree with me on this?
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|- ᴊᴏʀᴅᴀɴ -| Yeah- I get what you mean. Seeing all of those ‘you aren’t pretty unless you have this body shape’ videos- Actually get to me bc- I’m a huskier guy and- People telling you that your body shape isn’t acceptable hurts and it makes you want to be ‘perfect’ When in reality, it’s probably making you ill. Those waistlines look anything but normal but I want it. i crave it. I desire it. all the time i see myself as- this big ass pig who eats everything, knowing i could be thinner and those videos don’t make it any better
I’m here for you if you need to vent i’m here
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Blake i wanna eat healthy but food is tasty
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|- ᴊᴏʀᴅᴀɴ -| Real
But also- You know that- Some people literally can’t get that thin it depends on bone structure, too
