• Mindset Relapse (TW: Suicidal Topics)

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    ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx
    TW: Suicide

    A while ago, on another website called Chatogo, I broke up with somebody because they cheated on me with ten other people. On February 11th, 2024, I got a message from her sister saying that she had committed suicide 3 days ago, so that would’ve been February 8th. For months, I hated myself, blamed myself, and used her contact on my phone as a sort of… diary? I vented and said how much I missed her, and told the ghostly contact how much I wish she was alive.

    One day, I got a reply. A simple one that read “I Love You.”

    I had a mental breakdown that night, and spent the rest of the year until September hating myself and wishing the worst kinds of things upon myself. I hated everything about myself, but kept telling myself that I don’t deserve the sweet release of oblivion. This mindset began to change, and I almost ended my entire life over the thought that I was never good enough, not even for a manipulator like my ex.

    I met somebody that day, the day I was going to do it. I was planning on just talking on Chatogo for a bit longer and I met her. She changed my life. Sure, we had a few struggles, but we stayed together in the end.

    Her mere existence challenges my old mindset, and she makes me want to be my best self, to be amazing as a person.

    But lately, my old thoughts of self loathing are beginning to return. I am constantly going through a mental battle between hating myself and forgiving myself.

    Does anybody have any advice on how to make these returning mental habits stay away?

  • Any advice for moving past academic burnout?

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    Your Local Shadow SimpY

    𝜗𝜚 rylie I really appreciate the tips, but I fear I can’t take a complete break, per se, because while I’m technically ahead of the benchmark, I’m still behind–I have overdue stuff I need to do, and it’s killing my mind. 5 ASL and like 4 history ones. I can do the normal stuff, it’s just killing me right now. 😭

  • Coming out.

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    sorrowsS

    @jordan_the_greater you dont seem annoying at all!! dont let your thoughts get you down ^_^

  • hey

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    Rēsh-1R

    when can i have self control?? i wanna go back to ASD bc i was there younger and im losing myself without going back to ASD so i wanna ask my mom but i cant have the guts to

  • Doing research

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    BlakeB

    @Cole LMAO OK😭

  • aita for watching squid game 2 without my mom and step dad?

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    Rēsh-1R

    Rēsh-1 unrelated, the fork scene was crazy work

  • heyyyy

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    @Fleeble-Glorp Heeble loibbley ruurf jorp!

  • repost; guys [Serious]

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    Rēsh-1R

    @everyone sorry for ping, i just need help /srs

  • guys [Serious]

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    Rēsh-1R
    boosting
  • so uh i've been tearing out my hair due to stress

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    BlakeB

    @Your_Local_Doom_Slayer <3

  • Mk.

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    ᴛʀᴇᴠᴏʀ

    @中本悠太
    Please do forgive and always forgive no matter how terrible the situation is, but also move on for you do not need those who hurt you.

  • Can I vent/rant to someone?

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    @Youre_Just_A_Pun_To_Put_It_Politely I try to be available daily, don’t be afraid to ask me! We all are concerned about you and most can agree that they’re fine with you talking to them in DMs

  • i kinda need help.,?

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    @your_local_carlisle_simp
    Me personally, I’d wanna be let down bluntly (no matter how much i like them) and i’d want them to get straight to the point. but y’know, grain of salt and all that. I sure as hell can’t speak for everyone.

  • ...

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    ry_rylieR

    @Youre_Just_A_Pun_To_Put_It_Politely alright :)

  • Can I vent to someone on call?

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    SphinxS

    𝜗𝜚 rylie Yeah sure

  • yo help

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  • my reps over 5 so everybody needs to die

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    Alucard no I can confirm that what my dad said when he programed me
    ok I’m gts gn yall

  • does anyone know the best way to deal with sh/how to stop doing it??

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    siloxa922S

    @Soggy_Bread said in does anyone know the best way to deal with sh/how to stop doing it??:

    very well could be, at all times.)

    You can’t change your mindset but you can definitely change your surroundings. Take advantage of that.

    that feels so inspirqtional

  • This happened (tw?)

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    @oopstheregoesmyex but i have my hair cut :D

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