i hate my dad. [possible tw]
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I don’t hate him because he abuses me, i dont hate him because he sa’s me-
I hate him because he isn’t there.
He isn’t a father, he just, lives with us. Moderates all day because he’s so sure it’ll come into something more and he’ll get paid six figures. But it gets to a point where you start to worry if money is even worth it. If his chromebook gets a low battery warning he starts scrambling looking for a child as if a device dying will cause his entire bloodline to perish. Though honestly, i dont think he’d care if it did by now.
He’s too sucked up trying to figure out which trumpie lawyer he’s supposed to moderate today because OBVIOUSLY taking your child to something that’s ending for the last time this year is not as important as pasting a link in chat and raiding out a stream.
just a few days ago, when my cold was starting, i was getting very stressed and when i get stressed i get nauseous. We’re a three minute drive away from home. But OH NO, he has to tell all his friends on rumble he’ll be wight back and he has to paste a link that takes five minutes as his OWN FUCKING CHILD sits next to him in the passenger seat with a bEEF JERKY BAG as a barf bag because he cant get home. I was literally shaking and whimpering like some sort of scared dog because 1 i hate being nauseous and 2 hed bitch about it if i did spew. ‘can you wait five minutes i need to paste a link’ I SHOULDNT HAVE HELD IT IN AND FUCKING THREW UP ON HIM, SEE HOW HE FUCKING LIKES THAT. AND YKW HE DOES. HE FUCKING STOPS AT THE GAS STATION. I ALMOST WALKEDD IN THERE AND BOUGHT A SNACK OR SOME SHIT LIKE THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU’RE GETTING GAS AM I NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU OR SOMETHING???
I CANT RELY ON HIM FOR SHIT, EITHER.
‘get your dad to do it’ basically means ‘it’s not gonna happen and you have todo it yourself’
two nights ago, i wanted grapes at like 10:pm. my mom says dad can get me grapes
it gets to like 12 am and i look in the fridge and turn to my dad [whos literally sitting on the couch ‘moderating’ like 6 feet away] and i note ‘man, i’m not sure if there’s grapes, can you check?’ and he says he will [now he SWEARS he said i should check but whatever]
1:am no grapes. [speaking of to ask for somethnig when i dont know how i just note shit like that my parents are used to it im just adhd what can i say im not funny] so i fall asleep and i tell my dad in the morning around 10 am. so- um. it got to 12 and he threw a pissy fit when i asked muttering something about me being ‘annoying’ because i wanted gRAPES???i got the grapes myself because obviously the man of the house can’t for his BY THE WAY VERY MUCH SO SICK CHILD. LIKE I WAS SNIFFLY SWEATY HOT DISORIENTED THE WORKS.
and my dad always does shit like this and claims he misheard me or uses his adhd as a crutch like ‘o-oh, it’s just becase i have horrible time management!!!’ but it’s gotten to the point where if someone asks ‘why are you so late??’ i just say ‘my dad.’ and they instantly get it because i can never be on time if he takes me somewhere. I didn’t even KNOW it was POSSIBLE for your dad to fix something straight away without nagging him a lot as a kid. ‘dad my leapad ran out of batteries:(’ ‘oh damn that sucks’ ‘can you- put batteries in it?’ ‘yeah five minutes’ 30 minutes later ‘oh dad thanks!’ goes back to get leapad ‘n-no, i didn’t put batteries in it yet.’
like that was such a normal in my house i genuinely got shocked as a little lad when ppl told me they just get shit done??? like i didnt know that was POSSIBLE but its just because my fat lard of a father cant do shit
forgot to mention but like- he gets genuinely annoyed at me when i tell him i accedentally bled on something when im on my period. like i think hes sort of sexist or something because he doesnt support feminists, doesnt support abortion, doesn’t support divorce [makes sense because my mother still tolerates him and hasn’t left him yet, probably because of their religion i don’t know LMAO], doesn’t support like- 90% of womens
cases… bc likea few months ago i accidentally bled on my carpet, accident right?
‘dad can you help me get blood out of my carpet later? i accidental-’
SIIGGHHHHH ‘ZOf, YOU cAn’T KEEP USIN THIS AS AN EXCUSE ANYMORE, ITS NOT CUTE.’
apologies for bleeding against my will, you will begin to cough in five days
