I actually need to get this off my chest wtf

[cha.hyun.suu]

I fear to say that whenever I talk to myself, I think somebody is actually in front of me, like ts is not a joke, it’s like they flicker when i say their name, they have like blonde short-cutted Renya-like hair, and like, chucky-type trousers, green eyes, and messed up makeup, I can’t tell if I’m actually seeing stuff, or what, I don’t even know their fucking gender because every time I say “ (name), are you there? “ they flicker a little to tell me they’re there. And when I say “ (name), will you leave me one day? “ they flicker twice, indicating they will eventually. I don’t know what, or if I’m actually tripping.