I might not be here anymore.
So, today, my mom got mad at me for bringing my earbuds (that she didn’t pay for) to school. It was a birthday present. She said, “Since You be sneaking around this tells me that you’re a piece of shit.” She threw my earbuds out the car window. The whole 10-minute car ride home I was telling myself not to cry. as I’m writing this I am about to cry. But I’m composing myself. She wants me to behave so I will not speak or show bright emotions towards her. I can’t seem to impress her Even with passing 70+'s as my grades. I feel that all she’s after are A’s and B’s.
She has called me horrible names like,
“Baby back bitch”
But none were as bad as today. calling me a piece of shit.
She said that I wouldn’t get anything extra and to forget about getting any presents. And I need to pay for my own food. Before she went upstairs she said, “Oh, and send dad some money so he can get you food.” I only have a few bucks so It wouldn’t be enough for anything but some 6 piece Nuggets from Mcdonald’s. She Is really testing my sanity right now and I want to die. She is the worst mother.
If I don’t reply in 3 weeks, I’m either dead or Slowly emotionally dying in this Household.
I’m never good enough.
I never impress her.
this is my goodbye.
If I have time another day I will send my diary entries about my childhood and about how I’ve been emotionally abused here since I was 10.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo Hey kiddo, Look things might be rough right now but remember, there is always someone willing to help you in the end.
"You’re never alone in this world"
@DameionLeingh You’re just saying that In pitty. I’m not in a good situation cause the person I grew up with all my life, the person who raised me is stabbing me in the back over some FUCKING GRADES
oh no… im sorry about your mom and i honestly wish i could help… i really hope you dont hurt yourself. your stronger than what your mom thinks you are and your an amazing person as well. i really hope shes just mad and not actually meaning anything that she has said. and honestly my grades are bad too, im surprised my mom hasnt told me that tbh.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo look…I feel for you I do…and no human being should have to go trough anything that you’re going through…
@RyLIE-DND My mom hates me. even when I want to have a bond with her she just has something to say about me. and My grades as a HIGH SCHOOL student are ass. and If I don’t pass I’ll need to repeat.
@RyLIE-DND Where I live 75 and above is passing
@RyLIE-DND My mom wants me to get all 100’s By the end of this week.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo those are kinda bad grades tho
@Inkfell-72 except the one 100
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo Oh wow, well i may not be your parent, but I’m honestly proud of the fact that your working so hard!
@Inkfell-72 That’s P.E Ofc I’d get a 100.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo ehhhhh i’ve seen lower than an 100 in gym
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo Well, try your best, and if its not up to her standards, and you still get good grades, at least you tried.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo dude you wanna see my grades?
mine are horrible.
^ yes i redid french again even tho i know most shit
not gonna show my 4th hour
im failing every class bro ong
@DameionLeingh Well In her head I didn’t try hard enough.
I know how you feel man, and I understand that you may feel it won’t get better.
I don’t know if it gets better either, but promise me you’ll stick around to see if it does. I’ll be right here with you, even if you aren’t online.
@DameionLeingh I need to be a passing student.
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo You do try hard! You are doing amazing!
@Your-Local-Non-Binary-Kiddo … And if you need any help with homework, talk to me.