i genuinely thought i was doing better, i mean my eating is bad, but it always has been. But i stopped crying all the time, my mental state i feel like has been slowly improving. And my bad dreams had become less frequent. But last night was bad. I was very mentally drained, i didnt wanna talk to anyone other than my boyfriend. But this number i dont recognize texted me, n i responded. i mean why wouldnt i respond to a text saying “making sure your not dead”. like, id think any at least half way decent person would respond to that. so i did. they wont tell me who they are. but the bad dreams are back. i hope its not who i think, but atp, i just know it is. and i wish he never texted me. i dont want him in my life. im happy without being told not to kms when i dont wanna
Best posts made by claybees_
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kinda just a fuck you (vent/rant)
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i dont think ive ever done a face reveal so here lol
ah yes, another emo boy on mppc lol
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updates on me
i dyed my hair
im gonna be 17 next month,
uh my moms in the hospital
and uh
yea
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I'm sorry.
To everyone who I’ve ever upset, lost, or have never deserved to have in my life, I’m sorry. I’m sorry I fuck up so much.
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i dyed my hair again
its actually been like a week but i dont think ive posted it, ill post better pics on my phone cuz its kinda faded lolz
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what the fuck.
one of my friends that happens to know a person that genuinely caused me so much harm, is going to prom with them. and its like what the actual fuck. you know what they did. you said youd avoid them. youre so fake. i cant believe this. why did you think that was ok? like did you think it was ok cuz its been years? like no. this person hurt me- and now youre that fucking close? nice to know you didnt believe me either. its cool. ifs fine. take their side cuz i know now you didnt mean those words anyway. its fine. its ok lolz
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RE: Moderator Application Topic. (Cut off on September, 16th 2023)
Username: claybees_ (or Bee)
Age: 16
How long have you been a part of this community?:almost 2 years (my first acc, that i cant get into joined abt december 26th-ish i think
How do you think you can help the mod team be effective?:
I’m online pretty often, even though i dont post much anymore, i read most of the topics
have you ever been muted or banned, if so, what for?:
no
What are some good leadership traits:
not afraid of confrontation, on often, will listen if anyone has any issues with someone on the site, or just needs to talk in general
How many hours/days are you able to be online per week?:
everyday, 3-8 hours daily
Have you had any previous moderation experience?:
yes, i used to run a blog site last year, which i have since deleted as the person i made it with didnt want to continue it
(Bonus) Who is your favorite moderator/admin, and why do you look up to them?: Duchess, she has been nothing but nice to me and listened when i’ve needed to vent about something, she’s even helped me with a past realtionship i had
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im like freaking out
ive never really looked at many colleges, but ive looked at this one school a few times, School of Art Institute of Chicago (SAIC). They sent me an email offering applications for their summer early college program. I’m freaking out cuz this is one of the best art schools in the country, and i really wanna go. But i cant even afford 2 weeks of the program so my mom would probably say no. I dont talk to my mom about it until tonight, but still, i wanna do this but i cant do shit if i dont have a job. ive gotta figure something out.
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Happy Birthday!!!
Happy birthday Rylie!!
You’ve been an amazing friend to me and i hope you have an amazing day!!
rylie -
little update on my life rn
I have exactly a month until my application and portfolio for SAIC is due. I turn 17 on February 28th. I have nothing done for my portfolio. I have A’s and B’s in all my classes right now. I still overthink most things. I’m stressing, I’m responsible for deciding I wanna do college, but I’m irresponsible for deciding this just over a month before the summer early college applications are due, and deciding it has to be the second best art school in the United States. I’ve been listening to a lot of music i never really liked, my current hyper fixation artist is Harry Styles. I have to schedule a college tour for SAIC at some point, but dont know if i can manage to get to Chicago at any point before the summer college session I’m hoping to get into, which is in June. I’m excited for all this, but stressed, really really stressed. Everything is a lot, and i just cant for now, i might take a break from stuff for a bit but idk, for now i should focus on my art.
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RE: Your Low Confidence Face Reveals
tbh i think some people do it for the attention and hope their gonna get stuff saying their attractive
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eyeliner i did cuz pog<33
and yes- big eyelashes and eyeliner-- it took too long to do this–
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i have made a straight boy bisexual
we kissed yesterday [dare]
we made out [he wanted to]
he just called me love in front of our friends
im pretty sure i un-straight-ed him