@shaggy2dopelmao Wow, thatâs a lot. Firstly, when youâre going through so much, the last thing you need to think about is us âdeservingâ something out of you. I am just glad to know how things are with you. I did notice you were gone for a long while.
Addictions are pretty hard to break, so donât be angry or upset you relapsed. I think the first mistake people do in relapsing is beating themself up. Because we all go backwards in mistakes at some point. Small ones, even. Not to say you did feel mad, but just thought Iâd make that clear in case. For people suffering from addictions, it can feel like a black cloud that hovers over you just waiting till you give into it again. I think having that feeling of âwhen will come back?â sort of thing definitely plays a role in it actually coming back. But thatâs a whole mindset thing that is hard to change. And isnât your fault if itâs that way.
When dealing with challenges life gives you, the first thing you want to go back to the addiction. And thatâs why itâs harder to get through addiction when your lifeâs already pretty messy and you just want something to go to. Becuase itâs actually comforting. When you take out the thing youâre addicted to, it can feel like then youâll have nothing. And thatâs hard too. There are always other things to go back to. Even if itâs not the same level of relief you get, thereâs always a healthier alternative. I would have to talk to you more about it but only if youâre up for it.
Iâm sorry you had to go through everything else. Itâs a really bad mix of events. Itâs tough since itâs not stuff you can control. Iâd love to talk if youâre comfortable but if youâre not up for it, I get it. Just glad to see you, Fin.
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