I literally don’t. I’ve been trying to distance myself from everything, But it doesn’t help. I’ve even tried doing what I’ve been trying to do for years, But I really just don’t feel like myself and I don’t know why. I’ve been through way too much, And I feel myself slipping away from everything. I actually don’t feel like myself. I really don’t. And I don’t know what to do. I just wanna be happy, That’s all. And people in hell want ice water. But people just can’t get what they want. Because life isn’t fair. And it’ll never be fair. It’s fucking exhausting. I’m tired of pretending, tired of smiling through shit I don’t feel, tired of dragging myself through every goddamn day like it’s some kind of test I never signed up for. Everything feels fake. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I try, I fucking try so hard, but it’s never enough.
It’s all bullshit. And I’m actually so fucking done.
