this is kinda just a little vent i need to get out.
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i didnt share this earlier bc i was in school and i like. idk⦠i thought abt it now for some reason.
so this morning at like 6, 7, in the morning there was a huge accent on the highway but it wasnt cars. it was a person. dead. under a bridge. bc of suicide. and i just wanted to like say that the suicide ranking has gone up as everyday goes by. and its really sad tbh⦠i mean i struggle with it but like fuck man it hurts when you have to think of amazing ass people that struggle with this and i try my fucking best to help as much people as i can and im just human i cant help as much people as i want to and it really fucking hurts me when people dont listen to me or dont believe me when i tell them something thats true. and trust me, i bet that if you told me anything abt me i dont believe it and you probably feel the same way abt this but it just hurts a lot bc i wanna be able to save everyone from this fucking shit and i wanna be able to make everyone happy and i feel like a fucking failure when i cant. fuck, ive lost many people to suicide and it hurts a lot bc ik i cant bring those people back. and not just me not being able to help people makes me think im a failure, everything i do makes me think im a failure. fuck, i told on my brother of what he did to me and i feel like a failure with that. i told on my ex stepdad for what he did to me and i feel like a failure for that. i feel like everything i do im a failure. i just⦠idk.
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@that1emotionalkid well Iβm here to talk whatever u feel like it ^^
And Iβm sorry u gonna through that :( -
@that1emotionalkid Youβre not a failure
I understand how some people like you feel like something couldβve been done by you to prevent someone getting hurt, or suicide - unfortunately, people choose to take that choice, leaving so many others behind. And for you, it isnβt your fault. You really have a heart of gold, to care for everybody, and for your friends. Your friends are definitely thankful to have a friend like you, to have someone there.
You do make people happy. You do it every day ^^ We wouldnβt want you to feel down over this - if anything, now is the time for us to make you feel happy after all youβve done :) -
Shazz_ Anybody when they read what Shazz says:
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@InvalidBandit Haha :)
People still need to know that, even if you canβt prevent something, you still had your thoughts for them, and that is more than enough to know that you care for really anybody thatβs suffering, thus willing to do something about it.
Itβs not common to see :)