Just realized why I don't vent to anybody anymore.
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I’m not scared of being a burden, I’m scared of being told to other people because they’ll use it against me like how my friends do. It’s not that I want that to happen, I’m scared it’s going to happen to one of the people that I really trust with all of my heart, and it’ll burn away if I found out they told another person. Betrayal is everything I’m scared of. Every time I make a new friend, they always betray me in some way and try to manipulate / gaslight me into thinking not, and I end up believing them. Just so they can betray me once more. I’m scared of betrayal.
